CreativeCat's Blog: Evening Thoughts

It's been a long time...
but it's never too late. I'm excited to reconnect with my Braveheart Sisters, especially the original founding 100--I've been out of the loop so long and the community has blossomed so much that I haven't been able to "catch up", so I'll simply reconnect to start.
I'm not sure how, but I'm certain that I will see you in October. In the mean time, I'm going to do what I require to rise to the occasion and get there.
Until soon,
Cat G.

Daily, I receive messages from the universe. (TUT...the universe talking...www.tut.com)
Today's was:

Sometimes, Cat, having more fun and being happier comes from looking for each in crazy, new places; instead of waiting for them to come from where you've found them before or where others are now finding them.

And I do mean crazy. Not just from the old standbys of travel, adventure, and romance, but from stretching, reaching, and growing. Accepting new responsibilities for your happiness, totally accepting others, and grasping even higher ideals. Philosophically taking yourself to places few have ever dared before.

Red hot smokin' love,
The Universe

I love and appreciate the fact that everything I've been doing/learning/sharing with BHWGC and Ellie is reinforced on so many different levels in my life. I also enjoy the fact that as always, these messages and reminders come right on time. With that said, I LOVE that my life is indeed "crazy" right now...just the right kind of crazy.
Man, I love my life.
Cat

I AM MY BEAUTY

Sheila just said that on the call. I find that so well put...never heard it quite like that. Not I am beautiful, but "I am MY beauty!"

Wow, I'm definitely marinating on that one for a while. Love it.
Cat

My boyfriend's 6 year old son says to me today: "I think blueberries are delightful!"

Now, this "delighted" me for a number of reasons. 1) the teacher in me was surprised and impressed by his choice of words. (When asked, it came from some television show he watches, which was also surprising)
2) It showed me that he's paying attention to the examples his parents and I are providing.

Now, don't get me wrong...the kid is a voracious eater and I think most foods hit his "I like" list (with the exception of cold salads--pasta, potato etc. and mustard).
But as we finished up our organic peanut butter and fruit-only jelly sandwiches (organic blueberries from the farmer's market on the side) I got really pensive.

See, right now I'm going through the process of writing a grant proposal incorporating hydroponic/sustainable gardening, fitness and education. At times I have moments of doubt. Will it work? Can I convince not only the kids, but parents and school folks that it's worthwhile? Will it really have an impact?
I come back to the thought that my commitment must not waiver. If I succumb to those thoughts, I've only partially committed--or, I've only made a "head commitment" and not a "heart commitment" as my dear BH sister Anita Jackson says.
Well lately-- in spite of myself-- the Universe has been aligning to provide the clarity after commitment. I'm doing the right thing. I'm getting closer to clarifying my purpose. I knew it was in education, and I knew it was more than what we currently have and rely on as educational models.

When I resigned from "teaching" in the public schools 6 years ago, I said then: "I'm not going back in the classroom unless there are some drastic changes, serious educational reform, and/or unless it's under my own terms!"

Well, if we want change, we've got to be change, right? I have changed, I AM change and I'm finally ready, equipped and inspired enough to lead change, and opportunities are presenting themselves left and right.

Back to the boy...I was lucky enough to just recently move in with him and his father so I get these little reminders often. On Saturday at the Farmer's Market he asked if we could get more eggplant! When he was with his mother, told her that they needed to get the lettuce that looked like leaves (spinach). He asks for more oatmeal in the morning and last night helped his father shuck ears of corn.

All in all, he is a reminder of what I find as inspiration: incorporation of health, nutrition, fitness and education ("paleeze Daddy, can you read just a little more!")...and I happen to find that just delightful!!