christinajeanne's Blog: Movies

I watched this movie tonight. I hadn’t watched a movie in a long time. But, I went to the library today and picked up a book and some DVD’s to watch. I was so excited walking into the library after not being in there for a while. The whole premise of the movie is about a couple who witness a crime and end up in witness protection but they are having problems and contemplating divorce and are already separated. I think this movie is about how tough times can bring people together or tear them apart. But, ultimately love triumphs no matter what happens. Yes love and relationships are hard work they are not a walk in the park but if you truly love someone then you will make it work and find the things that brought you together in the first place.

over the weekend I went on a trip up to visit my uncles family. I know they like me so I’m not complaining but I always feel a little awkward when I go to family gatherings that are not my family. They kept saying how beautiful there nieces are right in front of me but yet didn’t say I looked good or anything like that. I’m not going to lie but it did hurt my feelings even though I know that was not anyone’s intention.

Our car needs to be fixed. I think it is about on it’s last leg. but, hopefully we can get it fixed as soon as possible. And it won’t cost us a fortune. Please keep the situation in your prayers.

I watched the movie "The private lives of pippa lee" and thought it was so refreshing how a grown women finally finds freedom. She feels trapped in a marriage and in many ways she buried who she really was. She lost her young rebellious side her free loving spirit side. She lived to please her husband and ended up losing all of her being. I'm not saying you shouldn't try to make your spouse happy or other people. But, we can't do it to the point where we lose who we are and lose the joy that is in life. I can relate to that very well. Trying to please other people and just being a shadow on the wall instead of being the person that I am. The person that God made me to be. God doesn't want us to do wrong things but God also wants us to be happy. So as long as we are not doing anything wrong then we need to embrace who we are and have some fun and put the joy of life back into our life's.

I was listening to a radio program yesterday and was enjoying it so much. It was about how laughter and joy can heal us. I find when I'm sad and I genuinely laugh it makes me feel so much better. Now making fun of others or being sarcastic that is not being funny or genuine laughing. When we genuinely laugh it is not at the expense of other people. I've been on the other end of that so I know that to be true.

Today find something that brings you joy and makes you laugh. Celebrate it and embrace it. Have some fun and embrace the person you truly are.

Happy fourth of July my friends.

I watched the movie new moon after wanting to see it for ages. I could really relate to Bella and Edward him leaving and pretending like he didn't care or love Bella. Because that same situation happened to me three years ago almost around this time.

I got an e-mail from a girl saying that my boyfriend didn't want to be with me anymore and in some pretty harsh ways too. She was not nice about it at all. So I of course called him wanting to know what in the world was going on. But, instead she called me back. She basically told me the same thing to move on because he had no interest me anymore and never would.

Of course I was heartbroken because I've loved this guy since I was 16 years old. He has been such a part of my life for so long. Plus, we where planning on getting married and now suddenly everything I had known was gone. It disappeared from my life in just a few heartbreaking few moments. I can honestly tell you I experienced the same gut wrenching I don't think I can live without this person experience that Bella felt in the movie. I just wanted to lay down and let the world fade away.

I'm sure that sounds morbid and depressing but really this is not what this is about. I'm just saying that if you have had a soul mate and found out you could no longer be with them this is the feeling you would have.

Of course like Bella I tried to get by without him but as the days passed I was crying every night. I felt paralyzed really. All I could think about was him. Maybe this was not the right way to handle it but having your heartbroken is like losing someone in your family to death. One day they are there and the next they are gone only in a way it's worse because you know they are still out there somewhere living there life without you.

But, like Bella and Edward he came back into her life and explained to her that he did it all for her. He was just trying to protect her. He wanted to give her a chance to live her own life and be happy without him. My boyfriend did come back into my life as well. He was going to jail and he knew it too he wanted to protect me he wanted me to be have a chance of being happy without him. But, like Bella when you have a soul mate you know your life is better for having that person in it. "if you make me choose I'll choose him. It's always been him."

watched the movie “The lovely bones.” I read the book a long time ago. Itcaptured my heart then and it captured my heart watching the movie. AliceSebold is a great author who takes her experiences and uses them in her novels.The lovely bones reminded me of death. That death doesn’t necessarily have tobe a tragedy. In the material world people look at death as being the finale.You leave your loved ones behind and everyone grieves. I thought this way for along time as well. I lost my godfather and it was heart wrenching for me. Inever went to the funeral I felt like he said goodbye to me in his own way. Iam not sure I really did say goodbye. For a long time and even at this momentit is so hard for me to let it go. I don’t want to say goodbye. Now I’verealized death is not goodbye it is really just a new beginning for the person.They are no longer in a body so they can do anything they want to do. They canlive out there own heaven they are in a better place and still living it’s justa different kind of life. This gives me comfort.

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Sex and the City 2
saw this movie and despite the mixed reviews I really did enjoy it. I loved thefashion and it really reminded me of who I wanted to be and what I wanted to dowith my life. I always loved writing and actually that is one of the reasons Iwatched the show because Carrie was a writer. It reminded me about my passionfor writing. I had never forgotten I just started pursuing other things. Notthat there is anything wrong with that at all actually. It reminded me myspirituality and writing are very important to me and I realize I want to usethose two things and have a career out of them because I would rather dosomething that was important to me and meant something to me. I also stillsometimes consider being a lawyer and counselor. Those are other dreams and Ihaven’t put them on the back burner. For me those areas might reach morepeople. But, anyone I help in anyway is what I really want to be doing. I feellike these are all God thoughts that I had or angel thoughts. Only time willtell. But, no matter what I will preserve

"Though none go with me, I will follow, I will not turn back."

I watched Though None Go with me last night. I had seen it before although I don't remember when. It made me cry. I thought it was a powerful movie about following God's will. It is not easy to say to God "your will, not mine." I've often times found myself grappling with this concept. "but, God I want it my way." "God, I was sure this was meant to be." It can be discouraging when things don't go our way. We feel good about something and then it is taken away. I've suffered many losses. My godfather died, my dog died, my grandma being sick, almost losing the house to foreclosure and it being in foreclosure again soon if we don't come up with money that we don't have at the moment. During all these times and continuously I ask myself why do these things happen. Then I remember that God has a plan. God's way is not my way even though many times I wish it was. It is not always easy to trust a higher power but we have to keep the faith. Many times I feel like giving up and then I try to remember there must be a reason why I'm here. There is more to life then this. I trust in God and in the end things work out for the best.