Thank you, Ellie for this affirmation and thank you Universe for the gift of the layers of deeper meaning. I see myself in this affirmation today and I understand how to apply this to my life. It's like looking in a mirror at the truth and then no longer being able to look away in denial of that facet of me.
What does it mean that I am discovering the secret of 'doing' on the heels of experiencing Oriah Mountain Dreamer's, The Call, inviting women to stop doing and 'rest'?
Where do I find balance between doing and rest?
I feel that the answer is perhaps that when purpose is applied as a recipe within the doing that I naturally do each day, the doing becomes effortless. When purpose is applied to rest, the quiet space created somehow assists with the actions required in the doing.
I feel that a big part of the secret to assisting my Self to grow in balance is related to the recipe or belief system that I choose to apply within the doing and the resting. I am open to expanding and empowering my collection of recipes by releasing those that do not nourish me and inviting those that do.
I am humbled and I am grateful, with love and light, Lisa
Interesting observations ... After being inspired by Oriah Mountain Dreamer's The Call, I invited a deeper understanding of how to balance "doing" and "resting". I recognize myself resisting rest. The ‘tapes’ that automatically 'play' in my mind point the finger at others who I feel will scold me for resting. Yet I recognize that it is really me who is scolding me. That is the mirror of truth. I can only be scolded if I allow it. I hadn't seen this scolding as an opinion before and did not fully realize that it could be released.
I also observed that resist becomes rest when 'is' has been fully accepted. When "It is what it is." is applied to 'resist', the 'is' , accepted, disappears much the same as darkness cannot exist where there is light – and then ‘resist' becomes 'rest'
In gratitude for this deeper understanding of many, many things. With Love, Lisa
In gratitude and with love for ALL in my life that assists me to heal. I am grateful for the faces that the energies of healing choose to manifest in my life. I am humbled before the many forms that the energy of healing chooses to take. I am in the moment with the essence of healing.
Please accept my apologies. I am reposting one of my blog entries below and and making sure comments are enabled. I must have somehow ticked the box to not allow comments on this post and I can't find a way to un-tick it, so I am reposting it.
I have received several emails and messages on this subject through which I realized that some of you have a lot of your own personal wisdom to share about your own awakening to the power of your feminine energy.
Please feel free to share here as you shared with me privately. Again, I apologize for inadvertently disallowing comments.
"See" you on the Core Inner Circle call tonight!
with love and gratitude for my incredible BraveHeart Sisters! Lisa
Funny how life works ...
I am a woman. I am a woman yet I have been surrounded by SO much masculine energy in my life. I am beginning to understand that there are many ways this has affected me. There are many layers of belief that are interconnected over many interconnecting layers of my life and how I live it AND more importantly that this masculine way of doing things, this masculine energy, has been the foundation of the tools I use and the methods I automatically implement when making choices in my every day life. This would be great if I were a man - men's tools seem to work well for men. Yet I am a woman.
I attended the Core Inner Circle call last night where Ellie shared more wonderful tools for tapping into our feminine wisdom. It's always amazing to me how the information on these calls affirms where I am, gives me a deeper understanding of how I have been operating on auto-pilot and then assists me to stretch and to grow to know mySelf better. With these new tools ... tools that honor my feminine energy, I am slowly, consistently and lovingly learning more and more about mySelf each day. I am learning how to be Me.
I love, admire and respect the men in my life and I appreciate masculine energy in many, many ways ... yet I do not wish to embody it mySelf. I am a woman and my life's purpose is to be as God created me, to heal and nurture my own feminine energy, embodying the full essence of what it means to be Me - to blossom into my own divine feminine wisdom - and through this awakening be in service to women who choose to heal and blossom into their own divine feminine wisdom.
Today, in assessing my To-Do List and what I am giving my attention to I feel a deep sense of peace ... "It is what it is" and "I am what I am." as Ellie says it and as my son Jeff used to say, "It's all good! Enjoy the ride!"
What if acceptance permeates my belief system so deeply that I am not even aware of all of the 'ties' it has to my self-esteem? Am I required to discover, reveal, process and release each one individually or is it possible to be as though I have truly been reborn and release them all at once?
In asking this question I am not coming from a place of avoidance as much as I am from a place of expediency and efficiency. I want to move forward. To evolve. I want to surrender to who I am and trust that I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
I understand that there is something I am getting - some psychological reason that I am hanging on to these old beliefs. I feel that it is related to feeling safe as I see evidence of issues of safety and privacy surfacing in my life.
Its like I'm seeking a safe place to be me in the physical world and there's always a reason I find to stop. The reasons appear as invasions of my private space, the phone ringing, interruptions, etc. I find myself wanting to escape to the beach or to the woods. To solitude.
And then the excuse becomes "when I have private', quiet, safe space then I will be me." What if that never happens? What if, in this physical world there really is no quiet or safe space? What if the space and safety I seek is inside of me? What if its always there, easily accessible, even in a crowded room? I am simply required to create it.
I keep hearing Dr Sugar saying "if you want to" in relation to my weight and letting go. I realize that is also true about everything. Its as simple as "if you want to".
My son Josh shared this song with me on his way out the door this morning. As I listened, I felt increasing waves of emotion roll through me with each line of the song. The words and the music seemed to touch so many things … all at once.
When my tears started and Josh moved to comfort me, I said “It’s okay. I’m okay. This was just what I needed to hear today … the tears are perfect and cleansing ... I’m not hurting I am just releasing old bullshit through the tears … clearing the way for the journey ahead. It’s all perfect … Thank you for sharing this with me today … it’s all perfect.”
Thank you, Joshua. I love you and I am honored to be your mom. What would I say?