I HAVE COME BACK TO EDIT THIS BLOG – AFTER AN ENLIGHTENING MOMENT ABOUT 4:00AM. I REMEMBER SEVERAL DAYS AGO SITTING AT MY DESK – TELLING MYSELF THAT I SHOULD WRITE A BLOG AND HAVING GREAT INTERNAL CONFLICT ABOUT WHAT TO BLOG ABOUT AS I SAID…
“As I have sat here for the last hour deciding what to blog about I have to say I am in a dilemma.
I want to mix up the blogging a little bit and blog about some other interests instead of just blogging about the medical inspirations series. So that is on my agenda - but do I really want to start out on this new series on Friday the 13th? I don't think so...
And then I know you are all still anxiously awaiting my report on what happened at the John Gray Retreat that I attended with my husband. Yes I learned a great deal about my wonderful life partner and oh yes we did make some huge strides in our relationship.... but do I really want to share about this romantic interlude on Friday the 13th? I don't think so...
Oh - I did film some videos today for the medical inspiration video series and I tried my hand at stand up comedy on 2 of the clips - I was going to talk about this - - but I guess you will just have to wait and see it for yourself... because I don't want to ruin the moment on Friday the 13th.
Finally - I have been wanting to blog about my mom - a brave-heart woman who was a huge inspiration to me - - but I could never start a blog series about my beautiful mom on Friday the 13th.”
I THEN WENT ON TO DESCRIBE HOW WHEN I WAS A KID THAT MY MOM HAD SOME EMOTIONS AND EVEN ACTIONS ATTACHED TO FRIDAY THE 13TH… “You see my mom was very superstitious - she wouldn't sit in a seat numbered 13 or fly anywhere on the 13th - let alone Friday the 13th - she most likely would not have left the house - - haha - - my mom was always late too - I used to tease her that if it weren't for the last minute - nothing would ever get done - we would be going on a trip somewhere and it would be time to get in the car to go to the airport and someone would say "where is Helen?" and we would start looking for her and she would be in the bathtub - so we would drive like crazy to make it to the airport and be running through the concourse yelling for the plane to wait - - but you know... in all my life we never missed a plane except one time ... we were flying home from Miami on the 13th and we missed the flight - - I always thought she did that on purpose because she didn't want to fly on the 13th. It is kind of funny to think about now ... she also didn't like black cats - she would turn the car around and take a different route or pull over and wait for another car to cross the path first - or the last option would be to spit in a hat before you crossed the path - -
THEN I ENDED THE BLOG BY ASKING ABOUT CURIOUS BELIEFS OR BEHAVIORS THAT YOU WITNESSED IN YOUR PARENTS… “Well since I couldn't make up my mind what to blog about - I will just leave it at that - - what kind of things did your parents do when you were little that you now have to look back on and say – hmmmm”

SO OVERALL THIS WAS KIND OF A LAME BLOG – NO REAL INFORMATION – NO REAL INSPIRATION – JUST STUFF POURING OUT ONTO THE PAGE – BECAUSE I WAS FORCING MYSELF TO BLOG
SO I RECENTLY POSTED A GREAT BLOG ABOUT CELLULAR MEMORY AND IN THINKING ABOUT THIS I HAD A REAL A-HA MOMENT.
HERE IS MY ENLIGHTENMENT:
Clearly as a child, I grew up with and therefore have many memories stored in my body regarding my mom's feelings, actions, and behavior regarding the 13th. Now, as an adult, on a conscious level, it is not something I even think about....BUT in forcing myself to blog on a day that had that level of significance for my mom - - CLEARLY some of the CELLS and CELLULAR MEMORIES in my body were throwing up all kinds of RESISTANCE. A-Ha
GOOD STUFF
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Edited by DrSugar at 03/18/2009 11:17 AM MDT