New Moon

Happy fourth of July my friends.

I watched the movie new moon after wanting to see it for ages. I could really relate to Bella and Edward him leaving and pretending like he didn't care or love Bella. Because that same situation happened to me three years ago almost around this time.

I got an e-mail from a girl saying that my boyfriend didn't want to be with me anymore and in some pretty harsh ways too. She was not nice about it at all. So I of course called him wanting to know what in the world was going on. But, instead she called me back. She basically told me the same thing to move on because he had no interest me anymore and never would.

Of course I was heartbroken because I've loved this guy since I was 16 years old. He has been such a part of my life for so long. Plus, we where planning on getting married and now suddenly everything I had known was gone. It disappeared from my life in just a few heartbreaking few moments. I can honestly tell you I experienced the same gut wrenching I don't think I can live without this person experience that Bella felt in the movie. I just wanted to lay down and let the world fade away.

I'm sure that sounds morbid and depressing but really this is not what this is about. I'm just saying that if you have had a soul mate and found out you could no longer be with them this is the feeling you would have.

Of course like Bella I tried to get by without him but as the days passed I was crying every night. I felt paralyzed really. All I could think about was him. Maybe this was not the right way to handle it but having your heartbroken is like losing someone in your family to death. One day they are there and the next they are gone only in a way it's worse because you know they are still out there somewhere living there life without you.

But, like Bella and Edward he came back into her life and explained to her that he did it all for her. He was just trying to protect her. He wanted to give her a chance to live her own life and be happy without him. My boyfriend did come back into my life as well. He was going to jail and he knew it too he wanted to protect me he wanted me to be have a chance of being happy without him. But, like Bella when you have a soul mate you know your life is better for having that person in it. "if you make me choose I'll choose him. It's always been him."