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DREAM ON HOLD

Posted Oct 31, 2009 04:50 PM
This week I came to the realization that I am not the same woman I used to be.

For the last year I have put my energies into achieving a particular goal. I did everything within my power to realize this dream. You see, I am a very good student. I did the following...

I journaled, I took action, I visualized, I reached beyond my comfort zone in finding others to support me, I acted "as if" and I believed with the unbridled innocence of a child...

So much in fact, that when the Universe gave me a "NO-- NOT GONNA HAPPEN NOW" I was in a state of shock. I must admit... one week later, it is hard to believe my goal was not realized. It seemed "so within my reach"

BUT HERE IS THE INTERESTING THING: I have not gotten angry, thrown a fit, cussed like a sailor, blamed anyone or felt sorry for myself (well... maybe just a little sorry for myself ---and it's been a whole week)! It has dawned on me I am not the same woman I was a year ago.

The RISE experience (still fresh in my mind) reminded me I AM AN OLYMPIC CHAMPION AT LETTING GO and REJECTION HAPPENS GET OVER IT! As I have moved though this "rejection" this week I have reminded myself of these truths and guess what? It feels good! It feels good not to hold onto anger, self pity or blame.

A victim believes that the world or others in the world are conspiring against them.
This conscious co-creator now understands that "it" (my dream) is between Me and my God. There is no one to blame.

I will continue to work toward the realization of this dream and I know sooner or later I will achieve this or something better.
Fearlessly yours

Claudia

www.claudiacarawan.com
8 Comments
Claudia,
Thank you for sharing. I am new to the community and it is great to connect with spirits like yours.

I can relate to what you say exactly and I keep reminding myself to Get Back Up.! That is as important as reaching the goal and it makes us stronger for the next NO.

Thank you
Jenn
Claudia,

"I will continue to work toward the realization of this dream and I know sooner or later I will achieve this or something better."

Yes, you absolutely will. Because you are not wasting your time in the "victim" mode, your energy will create the momentum to achieve something better.

It was such a pleasure to meet you and listen to your song at RISE. You are Fearless!

With love, compassion and empowerment,

Amelia
Animal Lovers Community
Dear Claudia,

I am so honored to be in the company of such great talented spirits like you. We all get tied to a goal and loose the sight of the vision.

You, as an artist, have another challenge, you walk a fine line...conformity and being true to yourself and that carries with it unparalleled internal challenges.

If you haven't read Michael Beckwith's book, Spiritual Liberation, please go out and get it today... We are definitely spiritual beings having a human experience!

In his chapter, "Creatively Maladjusted", Beckwith addresses singing your song "...life with its challenges stimulates our growth and development...challenges reveal our blind spots, the places where we are yet bound by our personality traits...being alive means welcoming the next challenge because you have discovered how this activates the evolutionary impulse to establish a higher vision for your life. Transcending the personality's resistance to challenges is spiritually liberating...ask yourself the question, "What gift within me is seeking to emerge?" Place your attention on the emerging gift rather than the challenge and you will witness how the challenge begins to dissolve."

Keep on Singing Your Song and creating....the world needs you!

With a Song in My Heart,

Kathy
One Voice
Dearest Linda, Debra, Barbara, Amy & all my Braveheart friends:

Reading your comments (the love, the encouragement and celebration of my growth, and your belief in me) has been the BIGGEST virtual hug a person could ask for.

To think... I didn't know any of you 6 months ago yet I am impacted by all of you now. The Braveheart Community is very rare indeed (and lucky me-- that I have attracted this into my life!)

a big fat virtual SMOOCH to you all!

-Claudia
"I am not the same woman I was a year ago. "
Beautiful!! & worth CELEBRATING!!:-D

"This conscious co-creator now understands that "it" (my dream) is between Me and my God. There is no one to blame. "
also Beautiful!! & worthy of a Huge CELEBRATION!!!:^O :) :-D

Dear Claudia,
You are an Amazing Creation… a Magnificent Life… a Beautiful Soul… a Loving Spirit… an Irresistible Being…


the only reason that didn't happen for you is because there is something far Greater than you can even Imagine right now in store for you!

I am Celebrating with YOU, my dear Beautiful BraveHeart Sister :-x

Love You lots&lots*
~Amy

LIVE ALIVE! Community
Dear Claudia,

Since I began reclaiming my passion for writing and playing, over the past 2 years I have had many many a disappointment. I have been the one not picked or had the song not picked or didnt get this or that opportunity etc etc etc....I have also been told many an unsupportive thing etc etc etc...

There is a certain peace in committing and doing the work...participating. As Ellie says, the burden of wasted potential is the worxt burden of all" This for me is so true. Despite all of the sadness, feeling not enough, etc etc etc, this pain comes no where hear to the pain fo sitting on the sidelines and not participating at all. I did that for 10+ years. I had given up. That was absolutely by far much greater suffering.

As Linda said, "More meaningful rewards are before us" And as you said, "I will continue to work toward the realization of this dream and I know sooner or later I will achieve this or something better."

I will continue to move forward as well Claudia. I am so honored to have met with you and even sung with you in person.

Much Love:-x,
Debra
The Honor Your TruthCommunity
Dear Claudia,

When Thomas Edison invented the light bulb ... I believe it is stated that he tried a thousand some odd times before he achieved success. Can you imagine IF he had quit along the way? ... We would all literally be in the dark! ...

I think I have read somewhere that he felt that each "failure" merely taught him what not to do ... or, what else did not work ...

It is in persistence and refining that we arrive at success ... however, we may attempt to define it ...

And, as Linda said with slightly different words ... it IS in the journey ... Enjoy the journey! ...

"The prize is in the participation" is a very creative expression of the same "intention" ... To enjoy the journey .. the experience ... As far as I know, we only go through this life once ... so, we may as well enjoy ourselves! ...

It IS the journey that counts in the final analysis ... Prizes are ephemeral ... the experience is forever! ...

Have a great day!

Barb
Claudia,

You are such a fine lady and a fine talent... I would have loved to have seen this week go the other way for you,

D'and, I could not love you or your music anymore if it had.

*big hug*

Your experience is similar to what I experienced earlier this year.

Isn't it nice to know that we CAN have something in our sights and absolutely commit to its achievement?
Isn't it great to know that we have taken all the steps, and done our very best?
Isn't it a gas to experience that kind of passion?

Any time we engage in any kind of healthy competition, there will be "winners" selected.

There are also be many more "winners" who are not recognized for that particular accolade.
They are winners all the same.

I have this Size 2 body that feels like I'm 35, and You have a magnificent creation in the form of your CD "Fearless". We both carry the knowledge that we committed, created, and saw our dream to fruition... and we both have the experience of the participation...

and

The Prize is in the Participation

And that, my very cherished friend, makes us 2 per-centers!

Even more meaningful rewards are before us.

Let us pick up that which is before us... and

LET IT BE FUN!
B-)

ps. I enjoyed every second of wanting it and believing it and practicing my acceptance speech;)
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