"Great Time" (song lyrics)

Hello Courageous BraveHeart Women!

I am in Door County, WI. I work a seasonal job here. It is about 100 hours a week......no kidding....but I am paid well and I will be going home with cash in my pocket to finish my CD, video book, etc.....For the last 2 seasons, I have been working less and less. This season I will be here a total of 4 months instead of 7. I am transitioning. Sometimes, I wish I had quit.......that I had run. Quitting seems like it would be easier than setting boundaries and leaving more slowly. However, this job still serves me if I don't let it own me.

It has been interesting because I have set some boundaries in order to keep blogging and writing, playing music while I am here....maybe not as much as I would like, but normally all else besides work would stop for 6 months......so this is new. Consequently, I have felt like I am not enough. Typically unless I am falling over, I think I havent worked hard enough.....and if I am not posting every day, playing music everyday, etc then I feel like I am not enough with that either. I think I have to over compensate for my flaws...do everything to the extreme in order to be "good enough". I was measuring my value by how much pain I was in.....it has to hurt.....it has to be difficult.....I must struggle.....nothing should come with ease. I do not know where I learned this. Since I am doing things differently, I have had some chatter, but I'll take it. I accept the chatter because I know there is a period of transition and that the alternative is that I stay the same which is unacceptable to me.

It makes me a little anxious leaving......like I "should" be staying here and working the whole season....and putting more money in my pocket. Several people have said things like, "it is crazy to leave a job in "these times, aren't you scared about money". Saying yes to more work is what I usually do and then I plan on saying yes to my calling another day, another year....later.....when my "ducks are in a row"....when I have "enough" money.....etc etc etc. It felt safer to stay the same.....work work work.....for someone else....no risk....but die a little every day. The perfect time to leap never came on its own......I had to choose it! I am grateful that nowadays, I am more uncomfortable when I dont follow my heart than when I do. I follow my hearts desire, despite any fear, because not to became to painful. I could feel myself dying if not physically, spiritually. I Honor My Truth!

Being a part of this community has changed my life.....assisted me in making the changes to change my life...and I have a different life now that is still constantly changing, evolving....I am in motion......I am so inspired by the women here...your courage...your boldness.....your humility...your willingness! Dont leave before the miracle happens......its happening now in so many of our lives and in this community everyday, in subtle ways, in big ways....and I look forward to more. It's pretty cool, huh!

so I am leaving here next week......

These are lyrics to another song from my upcoming CD that seem to fit this time and I wanted to share them with you.....

Love,

Debra
The Honor Your Truth Community

GREAT TIME

This is a great time, and you can have faith
This is a great time, and you can have faith
When I am afraid, I know that I am growing
When I make changes, I tend to feel wrong, so wrong
I never could have planned this life if I tried to any better, anyway
just have to show up, be brave, and step out
and have faith

You can have faith

I can’t figure out how it’s gonna happen
how it’s gonna go down
In my humanness I try to use reason
To make some sense of this
More will be revealed as I go forward to declare my dreams
Just have to commit despite my fears
and develop wings on the way down

You can have faith

IF I LOOK AT HISTORY I CAN SEE A REASON
REASON FOR EVERYTHING
IT’S LIKE A PUZZLE THAT FITS TOGETHER
TOGETHER PERFECTLY

This is a great time and I wouldn’t trade it
No I wouldn’t trade it in
Even if it’s scary, it’s good to be alive
Good to jump in
I’ve been hiding and waiting for the guarantees to come
they never do but I follow my heart and I wont regret that I didn't step out
and have faith

You can have faith

IF I LOOK AT HISTORY I CAN SEE A REASON
A REASON FOR EVERYTHING
IT’S LIKE A PUZZLE THAT FITS TOGETHER
TOGETHER PERFECTLY
AND THERE MUST BE
MUST BE A REASON

This is a great time, and you can have faith

Debra Hadraba
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