"The Monkey Inside" (song lyrics)

Dear Courageous BraveHeart Women,

I wrote a song last night that was inspired by my last "Is It True?" Series Episode 66 What We Focus On We Become

This song is about the noise in my head....the chatter....that I choose to call my "Monkey". I am moving forward even though the "Monkey" still hangs around and says stuff. I don't resist it , I don't wait for it to end, I don't let it stop me, keep me stuck....I accept it and I am even grateful for what it has taught me about myself and the life around me. I used to give it much more attention than it deserved....I heard it as the truth.

It is rarely the truth. It is the past, the future...not the present.....it is fear. I can feel the shift from the truth in my heart, the truth inside......up and into my head.....where my ego lives....my "Monkey". The Monkey is goofy. It is sort of like a commentary to me now. Sometimes, it is interesting, sometimes not. Sometimes, I think, " well of course I would think that way given what I have been through.....but it no longer serves me". Sometimes it's funny, sometimes it's sad. It is what it is. I do what I do, I do what I want, what I feel inspired to do anyway. It's not always easy, but it is much less painful than the alternative, which is to be stuck....to wait...to not do anything......to be imprisoned, bound by the chatter.....those days are over.....are no longer. I move forward anyway. I do it all anyway. I Honor My Truth!

I wanted to share this song with you.

Much Love

Debra
The Honor Your Truth Community

THE MONKEY INSIDE

I can act like I don’t hear you
Like I don’t see you
Underneath
I can shut you out, try to shut you up
The more I fight to ignore you
You get in
I know you well, you know my past
You have my records up on the shelf
And I can listen, but I’m not playing them over
I’m not spinning them round and round and round
In my head

I’LL SAY HELLO
BUT I’LL WAVE GOODBYE
I’M MOVING ON
YOU KNOW WHY

I don’t remember when, you first showed up
Maybe you had your reasons long ago
Maybe I was afraid and you tried to protect me
Or keep me from too much disappointment
Don’t be too powerful, don’t be too beautiful
But don’t be any less or you won’t be enough
Just do it perfectly,
Do as I say to do
But not as I do, I’m confused
Go away, Go away

I’LL SAY HELLO

BUT I’LL WAVE GOODBYE
I’M MOVING ON
YOU KNOW WHY

I’ve been waiting here for you to go away
Go away so that I could be free one day
Free from the tape that tells me to stop it
That I should run, I should hide, I should keep it in
Keep it in so that no one will ever know
The truth of who we are

I'LL SAY HELLO
I'LL WAVE GOODBYE
I'M MOVIN ON
YOU KNOW WHY

You know me well
You have my records up on a shelf
And I will listen
But I'm not playing them over
I'm not spinning them round and round
In my head

Debra Hadraba
Copyright 2009