"Truth & Freedom" Episode Eleven

Welcome to Honor Your Truth

The “Is It True?” Series Episode Eleven

“The truth will set you free”

I was lying in bed this morning listening to the beep, beep, beep of an alarm…not my alarm….I refuse to claim this alarm. It is a new digital picture clock that is somehow set for 8 am. I can’t figure out how to change the time. It was on clearance and didn’t come with any instructions…one of those “As Is” deals. It is in my bathroom so I have to get up to turn it off. Why I don’t just unplug it for now is beyond me. I listened to the drone of constant beeping for almost 2 hours…….only slightly more appealing than dragging myself out of bed.

The noise was quieter, less grating than the noise in my head…..the endless chatter of fear and doubt. Whas up? I ask myself. While lying there in bed, I was thinking…thinking about my life and this idea that the truth will set us free. I believe the truth does set one free. Why then does something that I have always believed all of the sudden seem foreign and strange? I don’t even know what to say about it. I think this happens when I am about to have a deeper understanding of a concept. The level of understanding in the moment is not congruent with the shift that is happening inside.

In the past few days, I have been off kilter….out of whack. I had a check up recently and the doctor just phoned to tell me I am seriously low in Vitamin D. It is so low that I actually require a prescription. Could this be why? Or, is it the glitches in my life……little places where I am not honoring my truth. A “truth glitch” is a place in my life where what’s inside doesn't match what’s outside. I’d like to blame it all on the Vitamin D deficiency which of course caused the glitch, which in turn caused my whackedness. It’s the chicken and the egg concept. I simply swig down a vitamin with some water and I’ll be telling it like it is all over the place. In the event this is actually the case, I am going to fill it immediately.

However, more than likely, it’s that darn fear again. Hello. How ya’ doin’? Sometimes, I have to swirl the truth around a bit before I put it out there……practice acceptance of where I’m at today and let it gather what it needs to stand alone. While I am not an advocate of blurting out every feeling I have when I have it, I am able to conceal the truth less and less with any degree of sanity. I ask myself questions like…Is this necessary? Is this helpful? If so, I speak my truth. But Dagnabbit, I played along the past few days. I wasn’t ready, I felt afraid, and I acted as if all was hunky dory, business as usual. I am happy to report that apparently that doesn’t work for me anymore. I feel funky. This is the time. This is the place. I Honor My Truth!

Debra Hadraba
Honor Your Truth
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