I am changed because I choose to be

Yesterday the man that I think I love lied to me like he had done many times before. I once again made a decision to leave him alone. The difference this time is I finally let go. He has lied before. I would usually curse his soul, and talk about him is negative terms. However, yesterday I simply let go. I did not feel defeated, but I finally got it.. To curse him was to curse myself. To talk about his limitations, placed self-imposed limits on me, but most importantly when you let someone mistreat you, you are committing a form of long suffering suicide. How could I give my life for someone who showed so little regard for living? People who lie and hurt others are in some very bad place. I though about a letter that Erma Bombeck wrote after she found that she was dying of cancer. It was a letter to herself, saying how she would have done things differently in her life, as rich and as fulfilling as it may have been. My mantra today is if I was given one day to live what would my priorities be? I am going to write myself a letter tonight when I get home, listing what I would do from this moment forward, if given a chance, and than I will simply do it. I can guarantee you I would not be worrying about the man that has wrong me, and I would start forgiving myself for the wrongs I has committed. I would fight like hell to live to the fullest.

What are we waiting for?