Today I read several animal abuse stories that nearly made me go running for the hills again. In my mind, I threw up my hands and screamed "this is never going to stop no matter what I do!" And then I remembered to breathe. And when that wasn't enough I took another deep breath. As I write this, I'm breathing deeply again.
A man beats a 5 month old puppy nearly to death. All because somebody smacked him around earlier. A 5 month old puppy!
Some young girl microwaves a cat. 3 drunken men torture a cat and then weigh it down and throw it in the creek. A cop leaves his police dog in a hot car and the dog goes insane trying to get out before it finally dies.
How can I make it stop? Can I ever make it stop. Meanwhile the leader of my country has photo op of him eating seal meat. 70,000 licenses to kill wolves were issued in Idaho. (The wolf, btw, is my spirit animal.) Alaskan's are still aerial hunting wolves and I can't do a damned thing to stop it.
Men with tasers electroshock horses at a high school rodeo. And the Michael Vicks of the world continue to pit perfectly lovely dogs against each other in a "to the death" fight.
Why do I put myself through this? I read the stories, I cry, (I'm crying now!) I rant on my blog, I appeal to my friends on facebook and I try to make people see that if we just spoke together, we can change what is acceptable. But no one is listening. Does that mean I don't have the voice that people listen to? Does it mean I'm not saying it the right way, or in the right places? I know my friends dread it when I get on a campaign. My husband dreads it every time he catches me crying and tries to convince me to stop reading the stories or watching the videos. Both my best friend and my husband refuse to watch the same videos I watch or look at the pictures or even read the stories. They say they already don't agree with animal cruelty and that they don't need to read about it, see it or even hear about it. But isn't that sticking your head in the sand I ask?
Nothing ever changes. The cases of animal cruelty only seem to increase, never does a day go by when my google alerts don't have 25-50 new cases of animal cruelty.
So why am I doing this? I really just don't know the answer to that question. I'm not sure what my goal is, I don't have any idea why I feel compelled to continue in my campaign against crimes committed against animals. There's no reward, nor will there ever be. There's no successes, there's nothing I can hold up and proudly say I helped to achieve that!
I'm at a loss. But still, I continue on.
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