A heart of forgiveness

Hello, to all of my sisters...

I woke up this morning feeling such joy, peace and elation.
I am so blessed to have a bond with an army of strong and inspirational women with whom i have never met but feel as though i already know.

I did something today that gave me great joy to do. Recently I found out that the man i had been involved with for almost 2 years was an ultimate con man. He was engaged to at least 5 women in different cities. He was living with me and cheating the whole time.

One of the women he was engaged to e-mailed me one week after he went to jail for a probation violation from 5 years ago. Mind you this man had his own business and was known by quite a few people. I was suspicious of his relationship with a client. I had e-mailed her in April of my suspicions but at the time she was not concerned or did not quite believe me.

Well after he went to jail in May, she e-mailed me and wanted more information. Once we compared notes we found out that there were a total of 9 women that we know of that he was involved with. He continued to lie to her about his involvement with everyone. When he found out that she had contacted all of the women who were known to be involved with him he became angry and is now threatening to sue her and i both, on what grounds we do not know.

I have not spoken to him since he was arrested but i did write him a letter letting him know that i knew everything and of course it was over for me. But what hurt even more was that this man told two of the women who spoke with him about me that he never wanted me and to look at me because he would never be with anything like me as though i was this thing that disgusted him. It hurt for a while but one of the women with whom i am still in contact with reminded that i am made by God and beautiful in his sight.

Well today i sent this man scriptures and much information on the salvation of God and i let him know that i forgive him as my Father forgiven me and that i hold no malice against him but i would that he find jesus as i had. I disobeyed God's will for me by letting this man into my life but i thank God that he is so forgiving.

This is all a part of my journey back to me. Today i can say i am stronger and wiser and this too shall pass.