Falling; failing; time to get up.......

I am siting here today thinking about my life. There are sooo many things in my head that I am passionate about but I seem to let go of them or do half a job.

I have so many ideas continuously buzzing around in my head and I don't know where to go first. I feel like that 6 year old girl again that one day wanted to be a doctor the next day an actress. I want to leave my mark.

My problem is I keep giving up everything I start. I have people in my life that are sooo negative but these are also the people that I chose to love. I need to do something to change all of this.

I am a good mom and wife but there is so much more to me. I give up all the things I think of doing because I am so busy helping my loved ones that I don't have "time" for myself. Whenever I do do something for myself it seems to disrupt everyone because then I am "not there" for them. Its a constant tug of war.

My life isn't about me and i need it to be.