State of Confusion.....

well my New Year is starting out with a BANG....my husband and I took a break for a little while and I am not sure how that is going to go....

I have no car right now so every day I am trying to figure out how to get to work and who is going to watch the kids and what if they need to come home etc.

I am trying to decide if I should keep my job that all I have done since I started was to try and figure out what to do with the kids, 2 hour delays when they are sick which i have 4 kids 13, 6, twins that are 4 and this is the first year all the kids have been in school and they have been sick a lot. Not all at the same time but for weeks it was one or the other so everyday I was trying to shuffle kids just to get to work....other than the big factor of money it doesn't seem to be working.....I am stressed every day and I can't do it anymore....

I need a miracle and I need an answer....I just don't know what to do anymore

My kids need to come first as well..... things have been really unstable in this house and you can feel the tension bad here I just wish there was a simpler answer so that I could be home and not have to worry so much....I need to work from home somehow so that my hours are flexible I don't need a lot of things we are happy with what we have but I just want to live without fear and anxiety of the everyday....