Today.......

Today i am feeling extremely overwhelmed. Today I am feeling lost no passion no sense of self.....Today I feel like the weight of my family is all on my shoulders. Today I feel like maybe I made some bad decisions or rather wrong decisions. Today I am sick and I am home for the first time alone and I am realizing that I am stuck in this rut and I am losing myself big time. Everything that is going on around me right now I hate. I laugh everything off and pretend everything is ok when I am actually feeling like screaming and crying....I bought things the other day to do scrapbooking I feel like I need a hobby for myself and there it sits on the table. I love to read and I haven't read in months because I cant find the time. I don't really watch TV anymore because there are too many other things that need to be done. I feel like I am having a pity party and I cant get out from under it all.

Today........I am just really tired