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I wanted to take this time to say hello to all my fellowbravehearts. I have not been on the site lately, been pretty business trying desperately to bring my business out of the red in this crazy economy, ... but that's actually for another story.
I just heard that Michael Jackson's death was ruled a homicide. I am not shocked by it because my first question when this all started to unfold, was, "why on earth would a doctor prescribe anesthesia as a treatment for insomnia, And while, I'm sure there is a code of ethics that a doctor must adhere to, there is also the issue of celebs and powerful people putting pressure on doctors to give them what they want, especially those with private physicians. But at some point shouldn't a doctor take into consideration a persons state of being.
If you ask me (... and no one did. however) I think the pressure of such a huge come back was more than Micheal could handle. We've all felt the "suppose I fail" syndrom, and yes, just because someone has been on top most of their life doesn't mean they do not have the same insecurities as the rest of us. Especially after such a long hiatus, coupled with the scandals that plagued him, it would make anyone a bit nervous.
Additionally, when you look at the footage of his last interview about the "This Is It" concert, he says ...
"alright you guys, this is it, this is my last curtain call"
... Okay, maybe I'm being a bit dramatic, but it does make you think. Remember, on one of Micheals jackets he had written the year 1998 as being the year he predicted himself to die.
You never know, maybe he just wanted to check himself out. Also, what could have been the doctors motive. It was found that he was in financial troubles. Would Micheal dying helped him?

First, let me say how excited I am about joining Braveheart Women. Believe me, with all the social networking sites out there I have yet to get such energy, honesty and true encouragement as I have gotten so far with this group.
I have yet to blog, so I am taking this opportunity to accept the invite to do so.
I've always had a hard time writing down my feelings or thoughts on paper, but I've been told that I can "talk". "I love to do that!" Matter of fact, my friends call me "Oprah". They all call me with their problems, you know, relationships, children, life! I have a way of giving advise, and making people see clearly and objectively. Not sure I always use my own though!. I like to think of myself as a very open and objective person. Seeing things as they are, being perfectly honest about my feelings and how I see things. I am very caring, but I do not play games. I tell people when I think they are wrong, and I apologize when I am wrong.
I have one daughter, age 34. "OMG", I hadn't said that lately! Matter of fact, she will be 35 in June. ""Time waits for no one! ... Oh well!
She made me a grandmother at the tender age of 35, she was only 16. I think I cried for an entire month. I wanted to die, ... I wanted to kill her! LOL
I thought of abortion (she wanted to do what ever I wanted) and then I thought, "what if something happens to her if I make her do that", so we decided to deal with it. Needless to say, my granddaughter, who by the way is a wonderful girl, is approaching her second year of college, working on a medical career. She started out wanting to be a Pediatric Surgeon, but has now told me she may change to Psychiatry. I now have a 2 yr old grandson, sixteen plus years later. (what do you say about a two yr old, but "HELP".
As for myself, I've dealt with adversities in my life just as I would imagine we all have. I did not come from a wealthy, two parent household, ... just the opposite. My single mother struggled to take care of five children mostly on public assistance. I regret the fact that I did not take school very seriously growing up and much more so when I tried my hand at college. Fast forward, I worked for a international labor organization for 27 yrs. My last position there was lobbyist, which I did for about 15 yrs. I had to take a medical leave in 06 and retired in 07. That's when I opened a clothing boutique online, which had been my real passion. I loved fashion forever and did some amature modeling in my younger years. I found out I had degenerative bone decease in my 20's which led to a hip replacement when I was 27. I've had three since then with the last being in 2006. I have been very blessed and try to keep a positive attitude at all times. I believe that all things happen for a reason, and maybe that was God's way of leading back to what I really loved.