I've been thinking a lot lately about the mark we all make in the world and how big an impact has to be to be significant. I recently gave up what would have been considered a big job.
I was at the pinnacle of success in my chosen profession and I was very succesful in my work but I became someone I did not recognize and frankly someone I did not want to know, so I walked away.
I know some people think I'm nuts and I have had a few days when I questioned the decision but overall I know in my heart of hearts I made the right decision. I feel like I have gotten my life back. I have reconnected with friends, renewed my hobbies and interests, gotten closer to my husband, have been able to enjoy my home and I feel an overall sense of calm.
My struggle comes from the fact that right now I am not doing the things that people consider the things that make a mark. I am not working. We dont have kids. The school year just ended so I am not currently a student so what identifies me what mark am I making. Is it enough to be here to support my husband, to help a friend through her husbands deployment, to make beautiful pages of memories for my future children to see, to host parties where I laugh a lot and connect new people, to be able to focus on me in every sense.
I may not be making a mark in the traditional sense but I am making a mark on the lives I am touching and the best way to do that is to be the best me I can. So, yes it is absolutely enough for now
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