loriemarie's Blog

Hi,
I don't know if anyone has heard of the Landmark forum education.. It is a personal group transformation program. I didn't know that is what it was called, but after sitting in the three day seminar and listening to stories of what people have been through in their life , I could only dig down deep to find a few events that disturbed me. After the crying they said that I was missing something, loving myself, I guess that is why I stumbled upon this website also.
They strongly suggest through out the day that you connect with your family and that you must make phone calls and then invite them to your last session of the forum. I have talk to my children about this and their view they think that they are sucking money out of me. The Forum would like every one to committ and sign up for classes, I think it is a bad idea to take more classes at this time, because I have not spent time or money on my children, but I spent time on improving me. and trying to make a better happy life for myself by what they call declaring a way of being.. or by doing something.
They call life a game and we all play in it. Pretending to sometimes be who we are not.
so I would love some feedback from the ones reading this.. what is it about large groups that we all feel so connected, I felt like I have known these people forever, I just met them. So what is that? I am not afraid to approach people any more or talk to them or worry."Hey what are they thinking of me" do think they think that I am stupid? will I say the wrong thing, better keep my mouth shut. this is the slef talk that we do with ourselves, they call it the voices , and the fear of taking action the looking good/ afraid of looking bad. this place is called the Landmark Forum it is on the web you can check it out and write your comments on what you think.. am I getting paid to write this you might be wondering? the answer is No I am not . I wish that I was,getting paid to write, that is another thing that they talked about how to create possibilities from nothing, because the meaning of life is nothing. that doesn't mean to me that life is nothing, even though the coach said it was. Mi idea and what I got out of that is that life is what we make of it. what are your opinions on that?

Hi, to all reading this.
I hope that we are all getting better at what ever it is that we set out to do.
I have read about procrastination here and perfectionism.. I have the weaknesses that I hope that we can all get stronger here together..
I love this place it is like my escape with out really escaping... my other escape is sleeping.. That is not really a productive thing to do, if you don't need the sleep. It is only good if you wake up feeling that you have the solutions to the problems that arise in you.
Well that is how I feel..
I have to go to my fast haircut salon , today once again, thank goodness it is only from eleven until four, but sometiime it feels like a forever thing. My day there hasn't started and I already want to be finished.
I hope that my day is good and that everyone here has a good day also

I have come to the realize that I am different, no different looking from everyone else, My thoughts are different and sometimes I am afraid to speak because of the fear of being judged. I try to be all to all people just to fit in, because I never really fit any where. I keep trying to fit in. I dance to another drummer, and if they really knew what I thought about my world. and those around me, they would call me weird.
I am told to speak my mind, but when I do the people that I am around tell me to be quiet. How can a person be strong if they are being everything to everyone. There only a few people in my life I don't have to be everything for them, they love me for how I am and not what they want me to be.
I am told to look for another man to be with. They do not understand the respect that I give this man, He is my soul mate and always will be for the end of time. I am not looking for a man to take care of me, I am learning how to take care of myself.
I don't think stumbling onto this website was an accident, because as we all know all things happen for a reason. This is a good place to be, I feel that blogging here , no one is judging me or telling me that it is not good enough do it over.