Reki love Breathe into your body into your heart into your Aura until it expands within you and around you and let your presence to yourself and other sbe known. That is what I call empowerment. Let your gift of breath take you

Love is an act of something unconditional, Love is not haveing excpectations of those whom you love. Love is accepting differrences . Love is letting go of outcomes with another person. Love is supporrting one another in your dreams and goals. Love is opening your heart and loving even if you feel hurt. Love is listening and really hearing what the other one says Love is not somthing that goes away . People just get afraid then they shutdown and push love away. Love is loving yourself throught hte universe and the other person loving you back through the universe . It the seeing of that life force in one anothers eyes. Love is not sex it is the intimate bond that makes you feel like like making love . Love is from the cretor it is a gift. Love is it always is if you let it be.

I really believe the importance of the present moment. It helps me to recognize the gifts and to be open to receive those gifts in life with open arms and trust.
My gifts in the past week I am so grateful for. My story is this. I have been living with my mother the past four years, she has been my life saver and most certainly we have bonded on some levels. I have reached those places with her in spite of our opposite beliefs. I being a lesbian and her being a devout baptist it has been trying. I had felt I was completely losing my independence my identity , my self expression of who I am. My financial situation afforded me better health to reside with her.Dont get me wrong I love my mother dearly and she loves me. Mother daughter relationships are a hard one.; though I think that both her and I have moved mountains in this. I have come to a place where I am learning to understand her even though I do not agree with her beliefs to which I find so opressive of who I am and how i express myself in the world. My gifts have come to me because I made the decision to completely let go and trust in the flow of the Universe . I allowed myself the belief that the universe will provide for me and I will get what I need and even what I want. The first step I guess to attracting prosperity. I made the decision a week ago to move wether I just had money for rent and nothing else. I made the decision that my own expression and peace of mind was more important was even willing to go to food banks if I had to feed myself. I gave it to the god of my understanding. The results for me are wow.. A woman I have been getting to know as a friend and intimately well we are working towards more as lovers. 2 days ago asked me to share her home with me and it would be ours. She is asking me what I can afford for rent and we are going to share our costs of living. I don't have to worry about finding a home that will accept my 17 year old cat whom I dearly love. I will have the space to set up my Polarity therapy practice . To teach Reiki classes again. My world has opened up . When it was feeling so closed because I could not do that work out of my mothers home, though my mother is a first degree reiki student through me and a dear friend of mine , she has come along way and she has developed a friend in my friend whom she trusts. For the first time in my life I am not walking away from my mom and leaving a few years gap of no contact. My mother and I both see that It is hard difficult we can push one another's buttons and hurt one another and how our being in one another's life is so important . That moving is good. I worry that she will not feed herself properly because when I moved in four years ago she was suffering from malnutrition.: though I know I am not my mothers keeper . I can always see her and make sure she is taking her vitamins and getting enough protein and eating her vegetables and fruit. I am glad to say that the biggest gift I have is that I have my mother and she has me and that in spite of her anxt around my sexual identity that she so desperately wants me in her life and we are finding ways to do that without stepping on one another's process in faith , or who we have faith in.My mother all my life has never been there for me , but here I am at 50 years old feeling my mother being more present in my life then she ever was and I think that is the biggest gift I could ever be open to receive. It also feels good that I can say I have to live my life for me that does not mean Ido not love you , or care about you. I will not abandon you because my love for you is real. In a closure e of my story is that take a risk and trust the Universe because believe it , or not we are always taken care of. It is only a lack of faith in something bigger then you yourself that keeps one in fear and if there is fear there is no love , but if there is love and trust there is no fear. love and light Elvina

I am truly believing that nothing in my creators world happens by mistake. Our lessons we learn sometimes they are hard: though our experience of them , or the choosing of those experiences is for us to learn How can I do this differently? What Have I learned from this. A woman I was involved with I put her out of my life 6 months ago because of hurt and pain she caused me. 3 months ago she emailed me and it is now a t the point where we talk on line everyday. We had coffee last weekend and I am seeing the change in her. I also think sometimes when I just focus on what I am doing and focus on my own mental emotional spiritual growth. Things , or people come back into my life tenfold. It is a wonderful experience now, as she is changing and seeing the hurt that I felt from her. It is because she is seeing how she hurt herself. I feel like I am at the beginning of a new relationship and meeting her for the first time. I have been able to let go and forgive and know that we are all human and capable of the changes we need to make in life. I was afraid at first and even doubting, though that is slowly leaving me because I am seeing her for her courage to say yes I hurt you and I want you to meet who I wasn't being when I was with you and I am seeing that. A new trust is slowly forming and I like this woman I feel like I am meeting her again for the first time. I guess too because I am saying these are my boundaries. This is what I will accept and this is what I won't accept and I feel heard. At first I thought maybe she is manipulating me; though she is proving to me that she is not. She wants the same things as me. She wants growing relationships because chaos and drama she decided she did not want in her life.We are all the actors and actresses and the world is our stage and we can make it that way if we choose not to recreate the things we do not want in our life. It does not matter if we walk away from someone , or someone tells you to go away because you will continue to do the same thing over and over again with different places and different faces. I am glad that this woman has entered back into my life and see her changes and willingness to take the risk to be who she really is because she is even more beautiful then when I first in past had invited her into my life. Nothing in my creators world happens by mistake and I have gratitude because it is not to often that we are able to heal past involvements in our life. Most of the time we have to walk away and move on. In love and light Elvina.

CROWS A JIVIN

I wonder.
Do the crows get together on Friday night, it being Garbage day on Saturday.
I can hardly wait.
Whoa. Tomorrow is Garbage day. It is going to be a fine day.
Do crows hearts start lifting, get a beat inside of excitement?
Do their little wings and small claws start a groovin?
Do they start remembering other Garbage days?
Yeh! You remember LAST YEAR, THE PICKINS we got from that green garbage can.
Wow. And the mess we made that day.
It was great!
Yeh! What about the can that had absolutely nothing in it to eat, only Garbage.
The person who shoos us away and swears at us and calls us horrible names. Very hurtful.
We're just trying to stay alive, man. We all got to eat.
Yes, we crows have had some good times.
We stick together, a cawin when we have scored some good food to tell the others.
We crows are really quite cool. Truly, after my own.

Poem created by Pat McKeown

Here is my gift to all those looking for healing. Allow yourself to sit back breathe, relax and receive this beautiful energy I am sending to you

Inhale through your nose and exhale through your nose. feel the earth breath grounding you.
Inhale through your nose and exhale through your mouth feel the moisture in your mouth as you take in each water breath.
Inhale through your mouth and feel the dryness of the fire breath and exhale through your nose. Inhale through your nose and mouth at the same time and exhale through your nose and mouth at the same time this is the air breath feel your lungs and nostrils take in and release the air that you breathe. Inhale through you mouth and nose and pause foe a few seconds in between breathes, then exhale. Feel the space in between each breathe you breathe this is the ether breathe that connects us to the universe, the angels and spirits. The silence in the pause of breath. Repeat the sequence for as long as you feel the need to. . This connects you to the earth and the universe and to all the elements moving in your body and around your body. Say a prayer of gratitude to the creator/ creatress, spirit guides and angels. Pray for your highest good and for others highest good. Pray for forgiveness for self and those who have harmed you or wronged you . Breath in mother earth from your root and breath in light from the universe. Allow it to connect you to the. elements within you and around you, allow it to fill into your heart and pour into the palms of your hands. Send compassion peace and love to the four legged , the winged ones, the finned, the ones that creep and crawl and then to the two legged who search within. My passion in fire Reiki Love. love and Light.

My brother cam e to me as an angel in my dreams 25 years ago. I remember even though he showed himself to me as I knew him their was a light around him a brightness in his face. 2 months ago he came to me in a dream, perhaps because he wanted to acknowledge to me my new journey starting from a long painful one. No words were spoken; though the light around him was bright I felt an inner peace inside myself. I felt a calmness.This gave me the feeling that our loved ones who Have died are closer to us then we think. he came to give me a message to let me know I was on a right path. he came to remind me that my wings are starting to grow and my journey I am on now is good. He let me know that he has always been around me. No words were spoken but the beauty of his essence that shone all around him and through him. I believe in angels do you.

In many women's life's it is so easy to fall into continuing to tell their stories. Here in Canada and all over the world I see in women's groups that same dynamic. I myself am now in my heart and lead to believe that is what keeps women as victims of what has happened. This is not to say that it is ok what happened; however abuse is abuse. One individuals trauma is an experience of their own. The over identification keeps women stuck in I am a surviver. This means We can only strive to survive. Then we cannot move beyond that survival mode of being.Yes finding voice for oneself is important. Perhaps there is a better way to find that voice within to say no my past does not define who I am. Perhaps it has created the strength and courage within me to create something better. I see that we need to identify a positive way of rewriting our stories without the details that perhaps has defined us in this circle that needs to shift in its balance. . I believe that the statements we make and stories we tell about ourselves must come from a place of what empowers us now and not a place of this is what happened to me. therefore re- write this script. Define ourselves; We are the writers of our own play and can create a completely different movie of our life's

To find passion Is to open channels to the dormant serpent that sits at the seat of the soul. When risen touches all the elements that are the mother earth that is our body, By the water that is in our body connected to the mother earths womb,the water that feeds her as it feeds us. By the fire that is in the mothers core which is in the seat of our soul and rises in it's passion to connect with our true heart,By the air that we breath which connects us to the mother to support us in bringing it back into ourselves our breath is our gift. the fifth element is the ether's that are the universe to be anchored in ourselves through the mother and back up again
Passion is the element of fire, Fire transforms shifts and changes and when it rises it touches every element in our body. When it connects with the ethers it ignites into passion and purpose. In that it brings all the elements within ourselves in balance in to a polarity of connection and communion to the mother earth; to the universe the ethers. the no time ,no space continuum,where the spirits are as close to you as the wind rushing by your side.

THOUGHTS OF ILLUSION TO PONDER

Well let's break the box of illusion. This is what I perceive in what I have to do. I am sitting in this box that is the illusion and have kicked the sides down. Now i am sitting in the Centre and I am pondering this thought. If time is an illusionthe box Centre that I am sitting in is an illusion. Tell me how am I to reach beyond this illusion that is fixed between so many of our eyes and even mine. I am sitting in this chair and I could sit and connect to its molecular system that is sped up so fast that my eyes perceive it as a solid mass, so therefore I can sit on it. If I go beyond that of which it is and go into its energy then the chair and I can become one. The centre of the box that I sit in becomes just the illusion that I have created., so my surface eyes can see.. To further this ; the world and what is in it we all see through those surface eyes. The magician play's his tricks to achieve an illusion in the blink of an eye. Tells you this is magic. Oh I say is it really hmm.Ah; though the avatar sees behind the illusion and masters no time no space. Manifests into the centre of his palm. I have yet to grasp this form of shifting from the illusion and the definitive description of what is real and what is not. I have had fleeting moments of this flow, yet have not been able to hold it there. Then I go back into duality, back into time. My day's are longer, or there is not enough time and I am getting to old. I am mostly water; though if I went into the speed of my entire molecular system I am sure I could heat myself up enough to spontaneously com bust. Which is not what I want. I just want to get above the illusion, so I can travel a little more lightly and manifest what I want at an instant energy form thought. I know I could master this energy if I could just let go of mind and the illusion of time and space. The illusion of the drama the illusion of duality.

Imagine a Woman
Imagine a woman who honors her experience and tells her stories.
Who refuses to carry the sins of others within her body and life.
Imagine a woman who believes she is good. A woman who trusts and respects herself. Who listens to her needs and desires, and meets them with tenderness and grace.
Imagine a woman who has acknowledged the past's influence on the present. A woman who has walked through the past. Who has healed into the present.
Imagine a woman a woman who authors her life. A woman who exerts, initiates and moves on her own behalf. Who refuses to surrender except to her truest self and her wisest voice.
Imagine a woman who names her own Gods. a woman who imagines the divine in her image and her likeness. Who designs her own spirituality and allows it to inform her daily life.
Imagine a woman in love with her own body. A woman who believes her body is enough just as it is. Who celebrates her body and its rhythms and cycles as an exquisite resource,
Imagine a woman who honors the face of the goddess in her changing face. A woman who celebrates the accumulation of her years and her wisdom. Who refuses to use precious energy disguising the changes in her body and her life.
Imagine a woman who values the women in her life. A woman who sits in circles of women. Who is reminded of the truth about herself when she forgets
Imagine yourself as this woman.
Author Patircia Lynn Reilly

A Rainbow across the raveen from my mothers townhome.