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Ahhh so yesterday was kind of a bad day for me. I have lost so much and am trying so hard to re-build my life from scatch.

I began thinking of all the people I lost and how betrayed I feel by everyone. When I think of my ex I think of how sad it is that I wasted that much time trusting someone, loving someone who as it turned out was cold as ice inside. The thing that makes me so sad is my life was flying downhill , I was literally drowning , out in the middle of the ocean by myself and he deems that a good time to turn his back and walk away. Knowing I was alone, knowing I was crushed and not caring enough to even stand by me and offer his hand up after everything we had been through togather.. I would of never betrayed him, never let him drown alone and never even after all this would I still treat anyone that way.

So my sob story isn't because I can't let go , its about feeling so alone and wondering what I ever did to him to have him not care that I was drowning. I mean if you saw someone would you help them ? To have people you know and love not even give you that much back is pretty dang destroying. Its awful.

One of my many lessons in all this is don't ever be as awful as people have treated you or you will become them and that must be a horrible way to go through life, so ice cold. The light in my heart is admirable and true . That is something no one can ever take from me, my heart , and its really his loss and the next guys gain.

So as Im re-building my life I do reflect on the past not because I can't get over it , more because Im having a hard time climbing out of this hole I fell into and theres not a single soul around to help me up.

So another week forging ahead here. I would love to hear what you have been through and what your doing now to. Some people dont know what real love is but that doesnt mean it doesnt exisit so dont give up and don't become bitter. Having true emotion no matter how long it takes you to deal with is not the same as being hateful or bitter.

Let your emotions out here at Shattered Girlz and we can be each others shoulders around the world ! I heard something great today I will always remember to live by " Lift as you climb " and that means help others up as you yourself build so " Lift as you climb " Thats my focus, thats my goal !

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Shattered Girlz is all about getting over a heartbreak, past or present and coming togather as a female community in the website forum to help others and share our stories. Its a place to laugh, poke fun, be happy and cry but I also have more lofty goals.

Eventually I would like to start a SG Charity and help females in dire situtions re-build thier lives. I watch all these specials on CNN and other channels where women and children are really living in the worst squaller you could ever imagine and I would like Shattered Girlz motto to be " Lift as you Climb " and reach out to do what we can to help othesr meet thier most basic needs we take for granted.

Even when we struggle there are those in way worse situations , some by no faults of thier own. Those are the ones we want to help and I plan on doing that as a interactive Charity in our forum so we can all have a say and a hand in what we do as a SG community . We have a bit of a journey before we can get to our own charity and here lies our challange.

If your in the Los Angeles area where we are at lets start to do what we can now. Maybe buy a extra tube of toothpaste once a month, a bottle of shampoo etc..and lets start getting some care packages togather to take down to the local shelters for homeless women and children.

If your in another state or country arrange to do that with your locals as well and lets all " Lift as we Climb " !!!

If your interested let me hear from you ! If you do something on your oown send us some pics of your efforts or tell us in the forum what your up to under Tell us your story. If we get enough people involved I will add a section to the forum to follow our charitable works !

Lets pull togather ! Shattered Girlz is not about waaa waaa cry cry. Its about re-building ourselves and others ! Lets make the brand stand for something more !

Would love everyones thoughts on this !