Through life's shadows and knots I've come and I'll experience more in days and nights that will inevitably unfold. I do not seek to be perfect nor desire to be, a lofty goal not to be obtained by a single being within earth's humanity. But ego and it's games and ploys has some believing it to be differently. It is obvious now as world events expose that ugliness, brought upon the lives of simple human beings, by the dictates of ranting egoes.
It is my wish to face my life head-on and I welcome that which is meant for me to learn and grow and expand my beingness with... as a result. It takes work, it takes feeling the full gamut of emotions, it takes courage and it takes a desire to become my ALL. No one else can do this for me nor would I ask them to do so. It is not ever simple or quick... nor is it bought or sold. It is only found where all wisdom dwells and shall always and in all ways dwell therein. You guessed it... the heart. For me it's about my vibrationally integrated heart and soul or heartsoul. This vibrational integrity can be labeled many things but its all the same Oneness or ALL to life that is eternal.
When I REALized blogging was now my PASSION words cannot express how I felt in that moment. It was as though I was standing literally in ALL that I AM now and have ever been or ever shall be. As though I stood more alive, more INvolved, more loved, loving and more REAL in that single moment... than at any other moment in my human experience. Yes I know as a mother, that giving birth is a most beautiful, magical, magnificent and miraculous moment... and it was all that to me also, but all that pales for me when compared to REALizing a passion. Please know I do very much love my children. However, I see my Self as a portal or vibrational gateway by which their souls descended to earth's dense plane. They have lessons for me and I have the same for them. The bottom line is, that we are all human beings whose eternal souls chose to be on earth at this time. Once a deep passion is discovered, one breathes life into it, expands with it and soon expresses as it(becoming enmeshed vibrationally with it) until it is made manifest in earth reality. It could be an invention such as the lightbulb or the first airplaine. It could be a sonnet, a classical composition, a serum to fight disease, a song lyric, a formula for a soft drink, a fashion trend, a new auto design. Anything in the vast expanse of human experience, is indeed possible. That's why we can dream big.... and why we might be wise to do so! Many would benefit where motivation comes from wanting to make our world a better place for ALL.
This may sound and feel untrue to some of you, however your truth is just that... your truth and mine is mine. And as I have shared in my blog, while experiencing any part of my blog, be with what feels DEEPLY right to you and simply RELEASE all that does not. I mean NO offense to anyone or their beliefs, not ever. And I would seek you stand under my truth such as it is for me, as I stand under yours. Or put another way... let us understand this is how we are, each a piece in the bigger puzzle that is life. Each of us have bits and pieces of eternal wisdom destined to become part of the Divine Oneness. The onedrous vibrational reality being built by choice here on earth, one hearted or Righted choice at-a-time. Put another way, Heaven on Earth, vibrationally speaking.
Writing has been part of my life since my mysterious physical body attack had me living at home with my parents at age 45. Prior to the attack I had REALized that I could simply sit at a computer's keyboard and words would magically just flow. My mind didn't have to think about it, it would just happen. I had hours and hours of DOWNTIME to explore this newly found JOY. During the last 12 months of my stay with Mom and Dad, my real writing endeavor began when I happened upon a little ad in a senior citizen publication I found lying around the house. It was a call for fiction book manuscripts that would be entered in a writing contest sponsored by Ted Turner's organization. It had to contain solutions to global problems. Submission deadline was just 7 weeks away. Each submission had to be at least 40,000 words and I was undaunted by that as it felt like a fun challenge to me. Heaven forbid the fact that I'd not ever done anything like that before. I mailed in my submission, it would have arrived by the deadline and of course I didn't ever hear back from them. But I was still a winner as I had in that short time written a 42,000 word book manuscript, which served to fuel those inner fires and have me doing more of the same. In the remaining time spent with the folks I brought through 5 more book manuscripts.
Parts of these book manuscripts were self-published in different forms in the following years. All the time my Dad continually letting me know that nothing would ever come of all of my hard work. Even when I presented him with self-published works, he still would come back with his, "Self-publishing doesn't really count!" or "Why would you do all this?"
I didn't know then of course what I've learnt in years since, but still I went with that all encompassing flow and played with that and allowed for that. It was sort of like a passion that'd not yet been fully REALized by the participant so INvolved. I cannot explain it except to simply say it's part of my Divine soul's purpose for being upon earth at this time. The tumblers have clicked into place, the knowingness of it all coming from where it's tucked away deep within the center of my human reality, or heart. Where it is my soulful blueprint lies embedded, vibrationally speaking. I feel there is a good power behind words that express from a human heart, and the more of it we do, the more we shall all grow and become better human beings.
I question not how this all came about... or that I am a writer whose only writing strengths are typing, being enabled to use a dictionary and a deep level of dedication. I do not see my Self as a writer, but humbly just an INSTRUMENT that is vibrationally played on by those HIGHER POWERS. Those vibrationally evolved souls who deem me appropriate, in some moments, to play a truthful tune upon OR through. This is all a vibrational connection for want of a better way to put it. A connection I openly gave permission to, as it came relatively easy for me. Being this kooky, out-of-step weird projection of a human being or energy field lends itself to all of this . Being that loose screw or nut whom life cracked open in some ways lent me to do all of this, to trust in what I cannot see with my human eyes, or feel with my human fingertips. I TRUST FULLY because I have yet to be given A SINGLE vibrationally aligned or spiritually based reason NOT TO TRUST. And thus I do what I do, or write such as it is, because I simply CANNOT NOT do it. Mrs. Wilshire, bless her soul... my high school senior English teacher would roll over in her grave if she had any idea I was doing this. Or... the thought just occured to me, that perhaps she's helping me from Above!?
I cannot sing a lick though I love chanting or humming or listening to the voices of our gifted and vibrationally connected singers on earth. I cannot play a musical instrument or do brain surgery or keep my checking account balanced to the penny. I cannot do many things and until I heard the little voice I had NO clue as to the BIGGER PICTURE or what role I was to FULFILL within the play of human life on planet earth. But I will tell you when I took 4 different male friends separately to see the movie FIELD of DREAMS, while living in and on a vision quest to Sedona Arizona... each time K. Costner's character, Ray Kinsella's little voice spoke... my WHOLE BODY turned into one HUGE goosebump. I had prior to this begun hearing my little voice and following those revelationally validating bumps, soon discovered more about all that. The synchronicities of life are unmistakable when we are OPEN TO and receptive to them, for being in our lives for a Divine Purpose.
I still believe with all my heart, that movie was designed by unseen forces to be a man's movie. To help them see how vital it is to allow their inner little boys out to play and explore for what is real and right about life. Men have so many societal pressures put upon them in their role as breadwinners, that escaping that net, oftentimes a very heavy net, can be daunting at times. I see this so especially with the generation of my parents and those prior to theirs. I just went and put on my VHS copy of Field of Dreams so it can play while I continue the editing process of the post(which can take hours sometimes). My bet is I'll get those goosebumps all over again. They FEEL SO GOOD. It's wise of all of us to honor and celebrate the various ways we are validated everyday. Some are much bigger and more vibrational in scope but all are designed to bring us more into Right and True vibrational alignment with our soulful Selves.
When I first heard my little voice, I didn't think anything of it... I may have had a small question or two, but I went with the flow. I haven't had a single regret since, though if truth were known I wish it would've unfolded years earlier. But it ALL is as it was soulfully designed to be. It all started in 1987 when I was doing some automatic writing... you know when you jot down a quick question with the pencil in your writing hand, then put the pencil in the hand you don't normally write with. You sit there in silence and slowly, the answer is written automatically, before your widely opened eyes. This process works to get one out of their thinking mind and into their creative or intuitive side of the brain. Being ambidextrous may have assisted me in this endeavor. As I was exploring, finding it very intriguing to say the least, I heard a faint whisper, my FIRST ENCOUNTER with the little voice.
This experience with the little voice continued for several years, and I have a couple of really awesome stories based on listening to my little voice, but will be future blog posts if they feel right to share. One day I REALized the little voice was no longer speaking to me. I went on with my life and slowly began REALizing instead of being ever so subtly guided or moved by a little whisper, I was now FEELING my way through life, for my RIGHT CHOICES, while continuing my spiritual journey of Self-discovery and explorations for MY truth. And it always worked that the more I allowed my Self to feel the more INvolved I became with the ALL of life, not just my own human experiences. I slowly over the years surrendered my humanness to that of my vibrational Point of Light within Universality.
I REALized I was but a speck in the cosmic scheme of all things, but still a vital piece of that WHOLE. And that sort of brings me to this NOW moment where I am a speck within the BHW sisterhood. Not a quiet one however, as has been witnessed by many here. This takes me back to a time in my life when the little voice kept repeating to me, "STAND UP, STEP FORWARD, SPEAK OUT". And my constant reply would always seem to be, "WHO ME, ABOUT WHAT?". Well, as I lay on a kitchen floor far from home, literally drawn up into a tight fetal position with my head back as far as it would go, unable to move ANYTHING but my eyeballs... I FINALLY GOT IT! In my mind I screamed, "Ok I will write the book!".
Following this event was a 2 hour stint in a strange hospital's emergency room. Here I was subjected to LIFE THREATENING and altering events. I could see and hear everything frantically going on around me and to me. Imagine breathing your own vomit, having your dentures removed so your mouth goes too far shut and your jaw clamps down as far as it will go. NO ONE came to my face to see if I were IN THE MOMENT or not, I could have moved my eyes for a YES or a NO, but I was not INvolved in the process at all. ASSUMPTIONS were made that I had had a seizure with NO history of such. They were asking the man I had been staying with for only 3 weeks these questions, he had NO answers for. Eventually, I was administered a huge injection of valium to UNLOCK me. Oh, by the way... I had no underwear on, had old ripped up but very cool blue jeans on at the time of my ER lesson. Afterall, just prior to my mysterious PHYSICAL BODY LOCKUP, I had been sitting on the floor cleaning the front of my friend's refrigerator while, he was at his day job. Purely an innocent moment taking a HUGE twist and my life went upside down for the next 2 years and would not ever BE THE SAME.
Later in my hospital bed, imagine being handcuffed to your hospital bed because you attempted to tear out the tubes from your nose that kept you from getting enough air. Finally the only friend I had in that city, my male friend, visited me and cut a hole in the tape covering my other nostril. Imagine at night while handcuffed to the bed, the temperature of the air changed and got too warm so you were drying up inside slowly, or that it would swing the other way and get too cold. Imagine witnessing hospital staff breaking the arm of an elderly patient in the bed next you who'd come in with a fractured hip. She left in worse shape than when she came in.
Finally all my rants about not being able to get enough air, had them x-ray me in my hospital bed and guess what... they discovered they had indeed put the air tube too far down and into my left lung. No wonder there was so little air flow. I left that hospital 6 days later in much worse shape than when I went in. I found out they had blown up my left lung like a balloon(can't recall the term for this) when an alternative doctor examined me upon my return to Oregon. The lung wasn't functioning, but thankfully does now. I've been thankful for being a nonsmoker so many times, as my lung healed faster and properly. Also I couldn't get food down, because following the LOCKUP of my body, a kink in my asphogus had developed. I only ate and ever so slowly, a few small wedges of citrus fruit in 3 months. Needless to say my male friend became really frustrated when I wouldn't eat, but it wouldn't go down.
Now here is an amazing part of all this... in those 3 months I didn't have a single hunger pang. I did take lots of hot baths and eventually had to crawl back and forth to the tub from my bed. I laid and prayed, I prayed and laid. Until another male friend I knew, living in a nearby small town, got a HIT one morning in the shower to give me a call. When he heard me on the phone, he knew I was in dire straights and came to my aid immediately. He took 1 look and knew to get me on my feet, get my blood moving and put my arm over his shoulder and we trudged around the city block together. He fed me cayenne and ginger in water(which always went down slowly but anything thicker than water would not go down), he had prepared at home to warm my inner world. That friend saved my life! I couldn't go to doctors, no money or insurance, and I kept telling my Self I would heal and get stronger. I had NO idea of the internal damage done to me at the hospital. AND because I was spiritually awakened I chose not to pursue legal action, although I probably had good cause. But those dedicated emergency room personnel thought they were doing the best they could, and that was that. I had and have peace with it.
The male friend I was living with, bless his heart, bought me a one way airline ticket back to Oregon and I went with the other friend(my savior) to his friend's home in the same city where he waited with me until my flight. He took me and my little bag to the airport, ecorted to my seat. By the time my parents met me at PDX(I was the last one off the plane, dragging my shoulder bag on the floor as I went) and got me to their home... I weighed 105 lbs with two sets of cotton sweatshirts and sweatpants and shoes on. I was near death although I hadn't seen it so. Mom, bless her heart cared for me the best she could, having lost all here stomach 9 years earlier. They had little money, I had none, so a MOTHER'S LOVE pulled me through until I gathered my stuff still in the area, sold it and visited my alternative doctor in the area.
I DID NOT, COULD NOT forget the promise I'd made, to WRITE A BOOK, although writing was an absolute and definite weakness, I KNEW I had to do it. I spent that next year and a half allowing words to pour through me as I grew strong enough to do so. The first 6 months I was too weak to sit for more than 5 or 10 minutes max. And during those 6 months of physical healing there were those nightmares I'd have when I would be jarred awake up, gasping for air. So emotional healing had to take place also much like post traumatic stress syndrome I imagine. Much later following the birth of my second but first first-hand grandchild I had to be escorted and have my hand held to be able to just walk into a hospital again. Imagine the thoughts that ran amuck when I got into the belly of the hospital and took in that aroma. But my herbalist spouse and life partner at that time... made certain he delivered me to view and experience the new delivery in my life!
Here is where I wish to share that I absolutely know that this physical body ordeal or set of challenges my life was forced to deal with... pales in comparison to the suffering and tragedies so many of my earthly brothers and sisters have endured. By sharing this portion of my life story I do not wish to minimalize the horrific happenings that unfold everywhere on earth. I respect and honor that souls involved in horrific tragedies serve an absolute and Divine Purpose perfectly. Blessings be to each and every such soul. My heart goes out to all those who have lost loved ones or their homes or their jobs. I surrender my little bits of pain and suffering over to their desires to heal and be whole once again.
And so my voice may seem loud now to you, as I have learned the value in fully expressing my Self and my FEELINGS. Having many if not most of one's physical capabilities stripped away, as in my case, you LEARN THE LESSON and you DO NOT FORGET that lesson. I liken this part of my life story as a sequel to dear Jimmy Stewart's magical IT'S A WONDERFUL LIFE film. I got a glimpse at the realm of possibilities available when one FAILS to ALLOW for their HIGHEST PATH or REASON or PURPOSE for being on earth.I therefore must be as I AM and am destined to be, such as I AM. I do not feel as though I must apologize for my loud voice or soften its impact. I do lovingly suggest that you simply ignore what I share if it does not feel right to YOU. BHW is where I hang my heart for now. I attach to no outcome(sometimes I momentarily forget this) from my being here. I shall let the flow take me where I may best serve the cause of Divine Oneness on earth.
I would also wish you to know, that as I sit and compose most my posts, I do not know who will read them(I am anything but psychic). But I do sense that wherever and however I may share my truth, there is at least ONE human being who will have an AHAA moment from that experience. The WORKINGS I AM INvolved in, unfold like that. And IF ONLY JUST 1 LIFE is touched in some small way, then ALL the hours I spend at the keyboard are forever worth it all. This is the reason my editing process is so vital and often takes so long and why I must go back and forth so much. I feel as I am editing the post how it's being expanded and evolved so it may be felt and received by more than just 1 other person. Not each time, but most generally this is the case. Once the original content is saved it does not change alot, but only too often new little bits are meant to be included and are added. So if you should read one of my posts right after it's posted you may wish to return. It may have evolved just enough to resonate more the second time around. To give you an idea, I started editing this blog post this morning at 10AM, it is now 4PM. So goes my life as a KEYBOARDIST for the CAUSE of EVOLVING TRUTH versus the revolutionary ways it sometimes unfolds on earth. I share a story of how I came to understand this and how it's better for me to evolve truth than to be a revolutionary about it... in my A BLOGGER'S STORY post.
The paychecks I receive for my dedication to this ONEDROUS CAUSE to evolve truth, come in the form of the MANY BLESSINGS my life is enriched by... and those are the ones that truthfully REALLY count in the end. Money can't do everything that life requires of us. As we come to REALize that by chasing the magic of money and all its financial echoes, we are actually running from what really matters to our lives... on a vibrational and spiritual level.
During my life journey I've felt most all human emotion... being opened to those feelings was sometimes forced upon me in that DARK CORNER in LIFE... but however it may all unfold, it's a true gift to be READIED and ENABLED to feel many if not ALL emotions. I truly believe that where we allow our emotions to remain deep within and not be felt or delt with.... those blocked emotional energetics get stuck and diminish our physical body's energy flows. I personally believe some human dis-eases are caused by long term emotional blockages in bodily cells... this is however ONLY my belief and how it feels to be for me. Please keep that in mind... as I spoke only for my Self. Afterall, from years of not listening to and honoring my heart's deepest desires... my heart had become heavily encased by an overgrowth of systemic candida and could have killed me. I know somethings and am learning about all the rest. When I STOP learning, I've STOPPED LIVING FULLY and this is a TRUTH any heartcentered vibrational seeker comes to FEEL and BELIEVE.
I would like to add something I've been feeling lately and that I WHOLEHEARTEDLY feel it. As we SHARE with one another our life stories... through a blog such as this ONEdrous BHW webHome community blog is, WE WILL ALL GROW and become better human beings. I would encourage anyone with a life story that forever changed their life, to step forward and express it. IF I CAN DO IT anyone can. I would WELCOME exploring your lives that I might learn and grow from having done so, as others would as well I am certain. If you have already done this in your blog, please allow us to know of this as there are many blogs here. This is the least you and YOUR HEART could do for the WHOLE that is BRAVE HEARTed WOMEN everywhere. You will not be judged by a single person on this site, although I recently allowed my Self to believe that had happened to me. Silly me surfaced and getting past my embarrassedment, I thankfully pulled my Self together. Am now fully back as who I REALLY AM. You will set certain aspects of your SELF FREE by sharing your life's story... this I can ATTEST FULLY to. I so appreciate having this online blog by which I explore, feel and heal my heart, my life and will eventually heal all my family ties.
I hope by exploring this expose of human feelings or emotions below... you might come to FEEL more of yours. For those among us that have yet to do so. I'm sure most here have been through this life lesson and are soaring on to the others. There are ALWAYS and in ALL WAYS other lessons to garner for one's SOULFUL INTEGRITY, vibrationally speaking. That is what being human, being on earth and being fully INvolved is about. And there are as MANY WAYS of exploring for and finding TRUTH as there ARE OF US so seeking. There is no RIGHT nor WRONG way as ALL PATHS eventually lead HOME to the Kingdom where the vibrations of Light ~ Love ~ Everlasting Life is the ALL THAT IS.
So it is with all my heart and all my soul that I share this... it has helped me better feel me and my life, even though at times it hurt knowing I had neglected many of my own life's emotional moments. I no longer do that and I allow my Self to feel it all... the trick is to simply not react in negative ways. Better yet, not to react at all... just simply BE in the moment.
Shared are just a few of
the emotions humans
may have the honor
of feeling at some
point in their life...
I feel love for life, for my Self, for the power of choice
I feel truthful in my day-to-day activity when happy inside
I feel unappreciated when I forget who I really am
I feel ecstatic about life and living it fully
I feel hesitant as I begin my vibrationally expansive spiritual quest
I feel perfect whenever I go to my hearted center
I feel genuine about seeking truth within my Self
I feel fearful by the mere thought of bringing about a change in my life
I feel urgency unfolding within me as I open to the new
I feel valuable to the purpose of peaceful ways unfolding on earth
I feel unreal if I question my established reality
I feel soulfully inducted into action by whisperings of my heart
I feel Divine just being that which my Creator designed me to be
I feel dreadful whenever I have to say 'no' to someone from a good cause
I feel Oneness born within me one hearted choice at-a-time
I feel reluctant to let go of what has worked for a long time
I feel familiar within the cosmic scheme of all things
I feel trustworthy of my Creator's gift of life to me
I feel dishonest if I don't honor my inner knowingness
I feel willing to take quantum leaps into the unknown
I feel vibrationally banded to that which is eternal
I feel lost when I am unable to make decisions that feel good to me
I feel envious of those who's lives seem to flow so effortlessly
I feel majestic when I stand in a natural setting far from towns and cities
I feel jovial about my life's challenges because they will make me a stronger person
I feel manipulated when I allow others to dominate my day-to-day activities
I feel cooperative when dealing with folks that treat me with respect
I feel demonstrative when the issue's about education, children, animals, health or the elderly
I feel illegitmate when daring to think outside the box
I feel heavenly knowing my answers are within me
I feel immersed by universality's Divine right and reason
I feel disloyal with my choice to rediscover a new me
I feel entwined with love's Divine and absolute purpose awaiting fulfillment by me
I feel disjointed where I fail to find stillness within each and every one of my days and nights
I feel Self-realized by every hearted choice I allow
I feel embellished by the unseen friends I believe my Higher Self keeps
I feel obligated to someone if I ask a favor of them
I feel exuberant when I awake to the dawning of a new day's possibilities
I feel teased when someone breaks their promise to me
I feel cheerful every time I catch a whiff of newly mown grass
I feel special when a small child gazes at me as though they've known me for ages
I feel devastated following a worldwide catastrophe
I feel integrated with all of life when I am loving and peaceful within myself
I feel abundance all around me when I witness life as a humbled viewer
I feel vital when people trust me to do important tasks for them
I feel wholly-balanced when goosebumps envelop me following an inner revelation
I feel uncomfortable around people who ridicule others because it's fun to them
I feel prioritized when my heart guides my day
I feel purposeful when searching for bits-n-pieces of my truth, that truth that will set me free
I feel exhalted when I connect with my core beliefs
I feel depleted each time I neglect my Self
I feel rumblings of desire when I allow for quiet time
I feel beautiful when I am truest to my heart's absolutely deepest desire
I feel respect for all persons because we are all children of a loving and forgiving Creator
I feel naked when sharing my feelings with others
I feel colassal when I stargaze late at night when all life around me is stilled
I feel tenderized when on my back lying upon a pile of leaves in the magic of fall
I feel enriched by walking a forested trail and listening to the trees whisper to me
I feel irritated at people who are crude and rude in their dealings with others
I feel prolific when I am digging in the soil as I wisely attune to nature's vibrations
I feel outlandishly free while walking, exploring and combing any beach
I feel rejuvenated by communing with my flowers, sniffing freely, absorbing fragrant magic
I feel muted when I cannot or do not freely express my Self
I feel motherly towards those in need of a hug and that need is found every where
I feel excitement for anything to do with being in the Now moment's razzle dazzle
I feel craziness for getting silly, feeling childlike and dancin' my buns off
I feel miraculous when getting some rays of sun upon my human body
I feel excluded by those who choose to judge me before they know me
I feel stupendous when on a new adventure life has invited me into
I feel helpless about the lack of family unity in our country
I feel puzzled why a civilized society rejects their greatest asset, the elder citizen
I feel inquisitive about my body mind spirit connections and shall open to it all
I feel contempt for those who abuse children or animals or themselves
I feel contagious when I smile at everything that happens around me be it good or not
I feel joy-filled when my God-given abilities serve a purpose
I feel closest to people who care about other people
I feel overpowered by those with egoes allowed to run amuck time after time
I feel poetic when I allow my heart's inner fire to ignite the Light in every bodily cell
I feel pinched by my life's demands on me to do more and do it better
I feel swallowed up by domineering attitudes and egoed personalities run amuck
I feel wholesome every time I eat organic or pure and natural food stuffs as my fuel
I feel humiliated when I find myself out in public with a stain on my clothes
I feel violated when my opinion doesn't seem to matter at all to others
I feel young-at-heart when I'm listening to live music
I feel overjoyed at the sight of clowns being clowns
I feel tranquil dining by candlelight in a small eatery with good food and a good friend
I feel gallant following a wise decision and it's outcome is that which I had sought
I feel vulnerable in a group of complete strangers that are smoking
I feel adventureous when the sky is clear, the moon's full and I've Self to commune with
I feel crafty when I come up with a great and most useful solution
I feel displeased each and every time I hurry my choice making process
I feel kinship with friends who are heart centered
I feel affection for all animals and children even the big mean ones
I feel deceived by those who are living their lives from behind facades
I feel foolhardy and very enthusiastic when my biorhythms are all high
I feel jubilant at the thought of an annual parade
I feel triumphant with even the smallest of victories because I allowed them to happen
I feel vivacious when wearing my favorite outfit regardless of how others take to it
I feel betrayed by life only when I doubt my Self's inner knowingness
I feel magificent in those moments where I freely express myself, and it's from my heart
I feel rowdy in my favorite pair of old worn out, torn, faded and stained blue jeans
I feel revived when I find quiet time, stillness or I meditate with the intent to listen
I feel loyal to my journey of self-discovery and self-empowerment
I feel nervous around folks who seem unlikely to smile but who'll soon crack and break
I feel naturally envigorated while exploring nature in any capacity
I feel transformed opening my mind to new thoughts and their realm of possibilities
I feel traditional at every Thanksgiving celebration, turkey or no turkey
I feel impatient with myself when it comes to routine
I feel impervious to negative attitudes around me at those moments I stand in my power
I feel clever when my imaginative nature explodes wildly into the now moment
I feel special when I celebrate my Self because I feel worthy of doing so
I feel privileged to be living on such a glorious planet
I feel slighted just a tad but not too bad when my best friend forgets my birthday
I feel extraordinary every time I have a massage
I feel untidy when my house is really messy but I'm OK with it being a little messy
I feel vigorous for many moments after I've enjoyed a meal with some live food included
I feel tarnished when I tell a little white lie for the sake of having someone feel a little better
I feel delightful as I exercise on a regular basis
I feel limited when the budget gets tight, unlimited in moments I am fully trusting
I feel sparkly all over when a subtle but profound insight comes to me
I feel tantalized walking by the window of a candy store where chocolates are displayed
I feel strong right after an early morning walk in the fresh air
I feel numb all over when a favorite pet has to be put down
I feel impulsive when shopping at a city sidewalk sale and the sun's out
I feel elated when I spot a rainbow someplace, even more so should I capture that image
I feel emptied as I begin tge get well recovery phase after a brief illness
I feel accord when working with others toward a goal
I feel embarrassed when I am late for an appointment even with good reason
I feel important when I can lend my expertise to someone that had need of it
I feel a strong reluctance when I try something new
I feel bubbly every time my favorite song plays on the radio and my feet get happy
I feel electrified when I have an 'ahaa' moment
I feel validated when a hunch pays off
I feel regretful when I deny myself a pleasing moment for no reason
I feel succumbing to a happy moment brings my heart to sing at its loudest level
I feel expanding one's horizon invites the best of opportuntities
I feel goodness comes to those who love life fully
I feel risking enlivens one's spirit to fly free, expands a human's vibrational band
I feel pointing the finger of blame to be an most unkind gesture
I feel being truthful is the highest path a human can take
I feel opening my mind to deepest desire changes a good choice into an aligned choice
I feel appreciative to outcomes that bring my inner peace to anchor and strengthen me
I feel polluted when negative thoughts dominate my day and weaken my determination
I feel guilty when I have to tell someone 'no'
I feel eloquent when I count all of my blessings and express appropriate gratitude
I feel excitement for the smallest of victories
I feel confused each time I'm around a negative person's energy and attitudes
I feel validated each time I bring joy to another's life
I feel connected when I make a new hearted friend
I resonate vibrationally with humble folks
I feel creative when the air I breathe smells fresh and alive
I feel rejected every time I find fault with my Self
I feel the most receptive when around happy people doings good things for other people
I feel honored when a stranger sends a smile my way
I feel courageous when I accomplish one of those most challenging tasks
I feel hostility when I'm in the company of hardened hearts and their human hosts
I feel prosperous as I allow more and more joy to flow through my body and into my life
I feel empowered by the love I share with others unconditionally
I feel diminished when I allow myself to be angry about anything I know nothing about
I feel trust for those who care about others' well-beingness
I feel fortunate to possess an inner wealth of joy, of love, of peace, of truth and soulful wisdom
I feel loose when I watch younger children at play, listen to their giggles, view their wiggles
I feel glad each time I share a hug or a smile
I feel disappointment when I do not follow through
I feel relieved when my inner world is quiet so I can freely explore my inner world
I feel happiest when my heart is happiest
I feel sad when I am forced to be indoors but appreciate seasonal changes
I feel pressured to not ever be late but OK with not wearing any form of a watch
I feel anxious when I lose control in the moment
I feel a tad out of place when I wear comfie clothes
I feel enlivened by a friend's supportive nature, for they do so out of respect
I feel blessed to be living a healthy, clean, unclutted and simplified lifestyle
I feel at peace when baking cookies just because the house smells so very good
I feel lonesome when I forget to meditate or bring my life to be stilled and quiet often
I feel energized after a long walk in nature's bountiful array of color, sound, aroma and texture
I feel blissful when I pray for others' good
I feel unwholly when I overlook sharing my heartfelt 'thank you' when called for
I feel determined even more when I seem to lose my thoughts to life's busyness
I feel exhausted when I consume unhealthy, polluted or genetically modified foods
I feel light as a feather after enjoying some tranquilizing quiet moments
I feel joyful as I write letters to my friend imprisoned for an improper length of time
I feel most alive when I witness the birthing of an earthly sun's rising
I feel belittled by friends who use me for egoed gain and ego's pleasures
I feel at peace knowing how deep my trust is for my heart's discerning abilities
I feel all together when I've forgiven someone
I feel down when life around me places societal expectations upon me
I feel good thoughts emerge after some big time laughter happens
I feel fully involved in life when I volunteer in any capacity
I feel least happy when I faulter and make us of a lower choice
I feel lucky to be alive and as I give back the joy life has gifted me with
I feel ecstatic when I am gardening under the magic of sun's rayed nutrition
I feel chaotic when I allow there to be too many irons in the fire
I feel humble when I count my blessings as there are always plenty
I feel trusted by others when I participate with my heart fully engaged in sharing
I feel weak when others misperceive me by egoed judgmental ways
I feel graceful when I respect my body, open my mind and free my spirit
I feel dumb when I fail at something I know I can do
I feel inspired when I make the right choice for all the right reasons
I feel empowered when I allow for the ebb n flo of change that must take place
I feel blue when I do something halfway when I could've done it better
I feel goodness filling me to overflow so I might share joy's flow
I feel so very calm inside when my heart and I view a sun's setting beauty
I feel left out when others view my uniqueness as too weird for them to experience
I feel childlike when I watch clouds float by as they change, evolving shapes and purpose
I feel silly when I ride an amuzement ride and instantly want to 'do it again'
I feel invigorated when I am listening to my favorite music
I feel bruised when a friend rejects me for no obvious reason
I feel relaxed when I do that which births those feel good moments
I feel safe when my heart discerns for me
I feel out of focus when I forget to feed my body
I feel healed when I believe I am a child of God
I feel fearless when what I believe is what I know to be truth deep within
I feel detached but connected when I allow my truth to express
I feel rebirthed when I fully approved of my Self
I feel attached to a denial when my heart's sad and isn't singing its vibrational song
I feel masterful when I allow my life to still and I go within for guidance
I feel astonishment for all those brave souls who have given their all for the rest of us
I feel at ease listening for and acting upon inner urges
I feel shameful when I neglect to care for my Self as I know how to do very well
I feel whimsical when my inner child becomes a catoon character in action
I feel vibrant when my heart sings alive a new joy that hadn't as yet been felt by me
I feel sheltered by a wise choice's effect on me, my life and my spirituality
I feel abandoned by others when I voice opinions I feel deeply about but they don't
I feel commonality happening when like-minded and heart centered people gather
I feel baffled when I lose true sight of what is real amidst humanity's dysfunctional ways
I feel expanded inside when I've done a good deed
I feel fearful when I lose touch with my inner knowingness or my core of truth
I feel independent when I accomplish something I know makes a difference somehow
I feel ageless as I balance my days with pleasure and the treasures of Self's discovery
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list above from a blog post: 222+ FEELINGS: Explore for passion Points of No Return
photo images: footprints in the sands of time; knotted protection from life's storms
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