ZenaMoore's Blog

It's real easy to criticize someome, perhaps it makes us feel better about yourself. If we really want to make progress in life and possible a good friend, when ever we feel the urge to criticize, offer assistance or helpful advice instead. It would be a much better world if we all just took the responsibility to do this one simple act. There may be times when that person does not want our help, we should apologize and politely back off.

Thought I would share this with you ;;;;;;;;;;

When you get what you want in your struggle for self
And the world makes you king for a day
Just go to the mirror and look at yourself
And see what that man has to say.

For it isn't your Father or Mother or wife
Whose judgement upon you must pass.
The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life
Is the one staring back from the glass.

Some people may call you a straight shooting chum
And call you a wonderful guy,
but the man in the glass says you're only a bum
If you can't look him straight in the eye.

He's the fellow to please, never mind all the rest
For he's with you clear to the end,
And you have passed your most dangerous test
If the man in the glass is your friend.

You may face the whole world down the pathway of life
And get pats on the back when you pass,
But your final reward will be heartache and strife
If you've cheated the man in the glass.

by: Dale Wimbrow

If you can look yourself in the mirror and be happy what you see its doesn't matter what anyone else thinks...Its you that counts....Reflect the beauty ,light and love that is you ....

What we see depends mainly on what we look for.
- Sir John Lubbock

What am I looking for, what am I looking at? I know a lot of the time I look at what I Do Not Want! I don’t want to be out of shape/ I don’t want to be broke / I don’t want to get sick
It’s very important that I change my thought patterns, stop looking at what I Don’t Want and begin to look at What I Want.
I want to be fit and within my appropriate weight range / I want to make a certain amount of money / I want to be healthy.
If we focus on what we Don’t want or on what we Do want, we get what we Focus On!

Life is all about our perspective, children can grow up in the same household and experience a lot of the same things but it’s all about the child’s outlook on life and their interpretations of these events and how they allow them to affect them. I’m learning to look for the silver lining in every situation and circumstance, it takes persistence and dedication to do this but it’s the healthiest and most productive outlook to take on life. Yes, sometimes we may have to holler, whine and cry but when it’s over look for that silver lining grab it and hold on tight, I’ll guarantee you’ll enjoy the ride a whole lot more.
~Zena~

What are your 2 most important beliefs about yourself?

Live your beliefs and you can turn the world around.
--Henry David Thoreau

Live your beliefs, what are my true beliefs are they negative or are they positive. Right now I’m realizing I have both negative and positive beliefs. I must make it a priority to change my negative beliefs into positive ones because whatever I believe becomes true for me. Do I truly believe that my health is a top priority in my life, if I truly believe that my life will begin to reflect it. There is emotional health and there is physical health, both is very important. I’m choosing to begin improving my emotional health and then encourage myself to create the physical self I desire.
I Believe I’m Intelligent and Creative!

My decision to begin blogging on a consistent base is an important part of improving my emotional health. Blogging and journaling are very similar and I realize it’s ability to allow me to heal myself emotionally.

Anti-Depressants are they a church an escape or an excuse not to deal with you real problems. For 20 years I refused to take anti- depressants because I did not view myself as weak enough to need a church. I was going to beat this somber mood myself and rise above my unhappiness. That day never came and still has not come but I am now taking anti-depressants and I feel hopeful that along with self help work diet and exercise I have more of a chance to recover. With anti-depressants I am mentally and emotionally strong enough to do the mental and emotional healing necessary for my recovery. Just think if I would not have viewed it as just a church so many years ago, I would have enjoyed my journey as a result of being able to heal my wounds of the past sooner.
Yes a lot of people abuse drugs and alcohol to escape emotional pain. Just like other medications if used appropriately along with other therapeutic practices anti-depressants can offer the necessary support to foster better emotional health and wellbeing.
Trust me if I was going to use a drug to escape, it definately would not be this weak perscription! I don't have an addictive personality and I thank God for that!

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Edited by ZenaMoore at 07/07/2009 3:50 PM MDT

I was working as a caregiver in my niece’s Assisted Living Home, I did not mind working with the elderly, though lifting them was very difficult, the most difficult thing was being treated like trash by “family”. I was glad to be out of that situation and for the past six weeks have been living in denial of my unemployment treating it like a vacation, well monies running out now and time to step back into the real world and look for a job. I began taking anti-depressants in January for a 20+ year history of mild depression, which I had been in denial about. I am just beginning to feel emotionally strong enough to venture out into the New “world of work”. Sometimes it’s easier to stay in the situation you’re familiar with even though it’s not good for fear of finding something that may turn out to be worse. Well, now I have no choice and I’m a little more emotionally prepared than I was a few months ago.
I don’t know which employment direction I’m going in, I’m putting in applications from fast foods to medical assisting for which I do have certification but dread the stressful work environment. These day it seems as though the only secure career path that pays good money is nursing, is there any other career paths that you are familiar with that fairly easy to get training, that pays good?
~Zena~

I had been mildly chronically depressed for over 20 years and I refused to believe that I had a problem. So what, If was not as happy and outgoing as most people, not everyone’s the same anyway. So what, if I rarely felt excited about anything, why get all excited, just to get disappointed anyway? I was always going through some situation or problem that was causing me stress and as soon as this situation was corrected, my joy would come rushing in. After there were no more major issues, I could not figure out why my joy had not overtaken me yet. I know I must be experiencing empty nest syndrome. My only child moved back home 2 years ago and we needed to work on healing our relationship. I had just moved across country to look for work a year prior to him moving back in. Not to mention a week before he got here the company I was working for downsized and I was let go. Still I was determined to conquer this situation and rise above. I moved to Arizona from Michigan experiencing low energy from my depressed moods add to that 115+ degrees for 4 to 5 months and no air in the car, I know I needed assistance to not go off the deep end. I began to talk with a therapist at the community college I was attending, I just needed to vent and get some things off my chest. I had been seeing her for 6 months, before my best friend for over 10 years, suggested Again that maybe I might want to try some anti-depressants. I thought, Really anti-depressants, me? maybe it is time to give it a real try.
I began taking Wellbutrine 150mg in January 2009 and after a few weeks I felt a little better, not so out of it. I had a little more control of my emotions and I continued to talk to my therapist every 2 weeks. She is a good therapist lays it right out there with very little sugar coating and I needed that. I was still not totally satisfied with the rate of my progress. I felt as though I was not getting worse but I was not getting any better either so I asked the nurse if I could increase my dosage and she agreed. I began taking 150mg in the morning and 150mg in the afternoon, still not satisfied with my emotional progression.
I have always been a self- help fanatic and have read almost every book under the sun. Almost 20 years ago, I began reading thing pertaining to ending domestic abuse in my life from there I went to Wayne Dyer to Positive Affirmations to be spoken day and night. I then learned about embracing my Inner Child and healing the wounds of the past. After obtaining my massage therapy certification, I learned about the emotions being stored in our muscles and cells throughout the body. Though I was aware of all this stuff, tools and techniques that could be implemented in my healing process, still in denial of my unnatural depressed state because it surly felt natural to me it was just the external problems keeping me from experiencing any joy. I’m sure it was not necessary for me to go through all these rituals and changes to improve myself. My depressed state is not that serious and as soon as my problem or situation is corrected, I’m going to snap out of this, without going through all those changes!! NOT!!
A few weeks ago I finally began to implement this tool and techniques. The Positive Affirmations in the Mirror, The talking to and nurturing my Inner Child, PRAYER & Meditating, exercising and eating better. I never had a problem with getting enough sleep, my problem is not having enough energy, though my energy level is not where I want it to be with vitamins and healthy habits, it is getting better. I have finally begun to feel like the wounds of the past, negative emotions, hopelessness about the future and my desire to isolate myself from everyone who’s out to cause me pain and suffering is beginning to diminish and I feeling stronger and more in control of my happiness.
I know it’s a long journey on a winding road with valleys and peeks; I just want to be able to look at the sunnier side regardless of my current situation.
I’m receiving a lot of help for very loving and caring individuals who found it in their hearts to help me go from depressed to delightfully divine and I will be forever grateful!